satine444

It is really quite awful... this haunting feeling, No more than a month ago, I was enamored with someone else- emotionally cheating on my husband. But things moved on and we have been great.

Today, though- it was me feeling the twinge of jealousy. All of them look at her this way- I watched them all fawn over her... Then to the bar, I stayed back (having to work in the morning).

I was awoken- just a shor time ago by loud laughing and a splash- skinny dipping. A favorite past time around here... but I am always there. I go downstairs trying to investigate- hoping it is my brother's roudy friends- no my husband another guy and three girls (or so told)... I just returned upstairs.

I was raised never to get jealous- it is a dangerous emotion as it leads to mistrust, and resentment. But it is undoubtedly there... the lingering pit in my stomach waiting for him to come up to bed.

Now that my plan to have a good night sleep before my first staff meeting tomorrow has been thwarted, I am unsure of what to do with myself...

GRRR.