So I found out in November that my little sister got married. I was surprised but not completely shocked because she was torn between waiting and having a real wedding with family, or just do a quick justice of the peace thing, out in california where she lives. The shock and hurt didn't come unitl she told me that she got married back in September. I was so hurt to have missed out on her excitement, and happiness in getting married, and unbelievably hurt to find out that she kept it from me only because she didn't want mom and dad to know and thought that if she told me that I would tell them. I was so angry and hurt, I cried for a bit, and made her swear to never keep anything like that from me again. I thought I had gotten used to the idea of being left out of her so called wedding until she posted pictures online. Showing all her friends decorating her car, pictures of her cake, and everything. It hurt so bad to see that it wasn't just an on the fly thing, instead she really planned it all out, and did it all completely without me. Now I know my lil sis and I haven't always gotten along. We don't see things the same when it comes to most things, and we are always in a love hate mood with each other. But I love her and care about her, and always thought that we could share everything with each other, especially something so big as her making a commitment to someone for the rest of her life. Right now I can't even explain the hurt that I feel over her doing this without me. I know this sounds selfish, but don't mistaken my hurt feelings as a sign that I am not happy for them. I wish them both the best of luck and am beyond happy that my sister feels that she has found someone to spend forever with. I'm just hurt because I have to realize that our relationship was not as strong as I thought it was. I couldn't imagine keeping my sister out of the loop. I couldn't wait to tell her about me ring shopping for jenna, and how excited I am to feel secure in my relationship to want to settle. I'm sure I'll get over this like I have with anything that has happened between my sister and I, but right now I am going to sulk a bit, and feel hurt. 