satansangel

ahhh summer in Radford what a great time of year. No stupid college students around to fuck up my day. I'm back at the Echostar working, which isnt fantastic but its not terrible either. Jenna and I are doing well as always actually things are great with her and I. My biggest setback at the moment is I have baby fever bad. I never thought that I would really want kids but for the past couple of months I have been thinking about the idea of having a baby a lot. I've also been spending lots of time with Jenna's little nephew and watching him grow from a newborn to this four month old little thing that is aware and squeals, and interacts is the most amazing thing ever. So I'm working on taking steps to get things financially under control and after that I plan on looking into having a child. It's exciting and scary to think about all at the same time. But I feel like within with the next two years things will work out to where having a baby will be right for me. I have a degree, and I'm working on having a steady job, I'm living in a stable environment, it's just a matter of getting Jenna on board with me. Though even if she's not I still plan on doing it. The idea of raising a child myself doesnt scare me because I know that I can do it. and its also possible that two months from now the baby fever will pass and i will go back to the i'll have children someday idea. who knows.