Photo by @caustix from an upcoming set!
hello there! it's been a while since I wrote but I feel it's a tradition of mine to write a blog every December right when the year is ending. This 2020 really sucked in general although it had some positive things too.
Before all this madness started I had a ton of money saved from the tour, my onlyfans, my work as a photographer etc that I wanted to invest on a few things: going back to college, getting my teeth fixed and future travels. Sadly the only thing I could accomplish was getting my teeth fixed (which I'm still on Invisalign treatment). Since I haven't been able to work (tour got canceled, few sets getting bought and not shooting new ones) all my saved money had to go to paying my rent and other survival expenses like groceries or therapy (cause this year I really had to take care of it). So here I am, December 2020 with all my savings gone and not knowing if I'll be able to pay this month's rent or continue my therapy sessions. I haven't been in this situation in years so the feeling of hopelessness is very intense.
The good things this year has brought is my baby dog who has helped tremendously with my mental health. He gives me strength to wake up every morning and go for a walk and get fresh air and explore new places together.
I have also started messing up with polymer clay and I've been modeling some cute key charms:
INSTAGRAM.COM/CLAYWITHBUNS - I don't sell them bc I don't think anybody is gonna be interested although if you are just send me a DM and we can arrange something!
Another silver lining is that I have decided I want to go to vet school to get a vet assistant or vet tech certification so I can work helping animals. I don't know when I'm gonna be able to do that bc I can't afford it atm but it's a future dream of mine. It might not seem much but deciding on a career is a big deal for me. I have always struggled with deciding what I wanted to do in the future, constantly changing careers, never being happy with whatever I was doing, never finishing what I started... this time it might happen again but I still want to give it a shot.
Lastly I just want to leave some links to my sites where you can follow and support me:
I created a new Onlyfans where I've been posting old and new content almost every day and right now is my only source of income:
ONLYFANS.COM/BUNNYSAYS - it's only $11.99 and I have more than 600 photos and 17 videos (:
I have also an Etsy store with prints, stickers and exclusive polaroids. I ship the same day of the purchase so you'll get it pretty quick!
I opened a Poshmark profile too, to sell all the clothes and shoes I don't use:
and last but not least, my wishlist where you can get me something for my birthday (01/11) if you're feeling like treating me:
Tell me something positive that happened to you this year, even the smallest thing counts!
love,
Saria.
