Highlights of This past weekend:
~ Kristina came to town.
~ Took semi nude pictures of Kristina for her SG application.
~ Went to a movie with Logan. Also went to The Pearl, and watched more of Family Guy with him as well. He payed for my way into the movie, and my drink at The Pearl while also getting himself in along with a large scoop of Ice Cream. I love it when guys like to buy girls things. Just simple things are nice, too. It makes me feel thought of, or at least taken care of. Cared for. Etc.
Brandon never bought me anything. Except when I had to ask him if him and I could like.. go out and do something. Which turned out being him and I staying in the house, ordering a pizza and watching some rented movies. Which he thought he should be receiving something from. He kept saying.. "I'd better be getting something for this." Like it was the worst thing ever to actually do something date - worthy. We never went out into public together ever. We rode the bus together once, and it was really nice. We didn't hold hands or anything..which for me is odd. I like to walk with my boyfriend and show people that he's mine. Plus I like holding hands. Generally. He has been constantly calling me since this past weekend. I went over to hangout with him.. got a tad too high, and did some things I probably shouldn't have. He lost my book. Said he'd pay me for it. But I have yet to hear anything about getting a cent. He wont get his hoodie back until then. I really wanted to read that book this weekend, too. "Choke" is the ultimate Chuck Palahniuk book that I've read thus far. Anyway, he's acting as if we're dating, even though we're not..and leaving me messages that are completely annoying and stupid.
Okay, I totally just got off topic.
~ Got to sleep alot. But kept waking up really early. Was always woken up earlier than I could have slept almost every single morning.
~ Saw Joey, Spencer, and Travis (??) late Sunday night. Had a good time in the basement. Slept like a rock till I had to wake up for work this morning. Work. UGH.
That is all, though.
~ Kristina came to town.
~ Took semi nude pictures of Kristina for her SG application.
~ Went to a movie with Logan. Also went to The Pearl, and watched more of Family Guy with him as well. He payed for my way into the movie, and my drink at The Pearl while also getting himself in along with a large scoop of Ice Cream. I love it when guys like to buy girls things. Just simple things are nice, too. It makes me feel thought of, or at least taken care of. Cared for. Etc.
Brandon never bought me anything. Except when I had to ask him if him and I could like.. go out and do something. Which turned out being him and I staying in the house, ordering a pizza and watching some rented movies. Which he thought he should be receiving something from. He kept saying.. "I'd better be getting something for this." Like it was the worst thing ever to actually do something date - worthy. We never went out into public together ever. We rode the bus together once, and it was really nice. We didn't hold hands or anything..which for me is odd. I like to walk with my boyfriend and show people that he's mine. Plus I like holding hands. Generally. He has been constantly calling me since this past weekend. I went over to hangout with him.. got a tad too high, and did some things I probably shouldn't have. He lost my book. Said he'd pay me for it. But I have yet to hear anything about getting a cent. He wont get his hoodie back until then. I really wanted to read that book this weekend, too. "Choke" is the ultimate Chuck Palahniuk book that I've read thus far. Anyway, he's acting as if we're dating, even though we're not..and leaving me messages that are completely annoying and stupid.
Okay, I totally just got off topic.
~ Got to sleep alot. But kept waking up really early. Was always woken up earlier than I could have slept almost every single morning.
~ Saw Joey, Spencer, and Travis (??) late Sunday night. Had a good time in the basement. Slept like a rock till I had to wake up for work this morning. Work. UGH.
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yeah, same storm. i'm not sure if you caught any of the news, but there was something like 100,000 people without power last night. when i got to my destination in port washington the whole block was out. i could only see people walking around inside with flashlights. an older gentleman in tosa died after being electrocuted by some downed power lines in his back yard.
looking back i suppose that words are something i've always had a little bit of a way with. english was one of those subjects i never really gave a shit about, yet somehow managed to pull off pretty well. i aced the english portion of my ACT's and tested out of it when i got to college. as a mechanical engineering major i rarely ever have to write much of anything. i had a class about documentary films last semester where i was able to write a few papers. they turned out ok although i was mainly just rambling on to fill up space. other than that i just keep around a notebook and folder of things that i've amassed over the years that i think of as being either well done or in some other way significant. it seems as though my lack of necessity for creativity has lead to an absence of inspiration. which, similar to the passing of gloomy moods (and as i'm sure you're well aware for both), can't be forced. i still need to finish that mix tape for dyan by the way...but i digress. last night was just one of those times that a few lines came into my mind and i polished and built up and polished and so on like a pearl. that's not to imply that i think that my words are on that level, that would just be self-righteous. anyways, i'd like to write you a story...more like i hope that i can. kind of like that mix tape, i seem to have trouble with things that people ask me to come up with because of whatever they think i've done well in the past. there's a much more relevant fear of failure associated with something that's purely for the enjoyment of someone you consider a friend. i can live with a shitty grade, i can't stand to disapoint someone i have any amount of personal regard for however. i'd be more than happy to give it a try though.
-kevin rammer
a.k.a. undeserving
edited once because i should really proof read this shit before hitting "submit".
edited twice because i wanted to thank you for helping me find a way to describe something. the idea of making someone else feel, at least, "taken care of" is something that i always strive to do, but never really knew how to describe too well. i know that money really shouldn't be a primary way of showing one's affection for another person, but i never seem to think that everything else i'm doing is enough. i have a slight history of spending much more than i should on things like food and random presents. there nothing like being able to make the person you care about smile, and knowing that you have the ability to do so is an incredibly uplifting sensation. i tend to put the happiness of those i truly care for much further ahead of my own. i like to see them happy, and yeah, feel taken care of. so yeah, i just wanted to let you know that i really liked the way you put that into words.
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