It has been awhile that i have been on there is been a lot going on one i got a new job finally it was getting bad at the old one when you don't want to get up anymore it time to move on. The other thing is that i tried to work out things with my husband and he tells me that he doesn't love me like he used too and can't give me the love that i deserve how do you tell someone that you have been with for 5 years that you don't want to be with them anymore how do you promise someone that you will be with me forever and poof your gone because you can't love me the way that i deserve to be love people keep telling me ill find better and what i deserve WHAT THE FUCK do they know that i don't i am not asking for the moon and stars (should I be?) i just need a little love and affection but no he can't give me that he cheats on me once a long time go but i pretend that i am doing okay and it bites me in the ass i am tired of crying i am not a weak person i am usually very strong and now i feel weak all i feel like i do is cry. I wish that it would stop hurting inside and it was a couple month ahead so i could have moved on but now i am here and it sucks it really hurts i want to stop hurting i need someone to put my attention too 
xani:
its going to hurt for awhile. its ok.
yourdead:
im really really sorry to read your journal 
i wish there was something i could do or say to make you feel better but alas there is not. if you ever need anyone just to talk to im a really good listener 
you were really helpfull to me when i was feeing down the other day and i'de really love to repay the favor so to speak. and if you ever need to get out of the house i've been going to barnes and nobel alot lately. Its a great thing to do because its gets you out of the house and you can kinda hide ot and just read. one of my female friends told me and it sounded like a good idea so i gave it a try and it was kinda nice. anyways if you ever need someone to talk to im here and like i said i'de love to repay the favor 
have a great day and i hope you are feeling better today then you were yesterday
i wish there was something i could do or say to make you feel better but alas there is not. if you ever need anyone just to talk to im a really good listener you were really helpfull to me when i was feeing down the other day and i'de really love to repay the favor so to speak. and if you ever need to get out of the house i've been going to barnes and nobel alot lately. Its a great thing to do because its gets you out of the house and you can kinda hide ot and just read. one of my female friends told me and it sounded like a good idea so i gave it a try and it was kinda nice. anyways if you ever need someone to talk to im here and like i said i'de love to repay the favor have a great day and i hope you are feeling better today then you were yesterday