santababy

i just got a call from my ex boyfriend nick, his mom baker acted him (in florida that is like committing one into the psych ward). it was the weirdest conversation, he just wanted to tell me he never regretted anything we had between us and that god had a plan for us. it was really strange, but nick was always eccentric in his own way. i am glad to see he is dealing with his problems and working through them. i hate to say this, but when he called i totally thought it was so tell me he had aids or something. yeah, im weird, but that is my biggest fear in life. oh well. that conversation was so draining, now im thinking about the 3 years we were together. damn, that was a long time ago. we still have a time capsule buried in his back yard under a ecalyptus tree. i hope i wasnt brought up in his group sessions. nick and i had some really fucked up things happen between us at times. i know there were a few times i crossed the line, but lets not talk about that b/c that would be delving into my emotional issues and god knows im suppressing them daily

well people it is friday night and i think im just going to relax tonight, possibly to go wal-mart, sleep, and what not. goodnight everyone. xoxoxo