Ziggy played guitar... and I have a headache....
If only life could be easier, and decisions made unconciously, as though we already knew what were the right decisions and the wrong ones... or whether to make one at all or not at this time....
I feel lost... lets just put that out there for a moment... utterly lost... not udderly lost like a baby cow lookin for its mother.. but utterly.....in so many ways i suppose, ill try not to get into it too much, i hate those emo cunts out there
Im just rambling, tis what I do, i know this is boring as shit to you, who gives a fuck about what i say when im half asleep anyways... i should hope the answer to that is no one... but i guess well find out...
just like those decisions... we make them, and then we find out if they worked or not... we dont find out how we feel about a decision until we make it... so we're constantly going out on a limb... a tretorous one at that... it could break at any time. but we wander out anyways.. and sometimes we're lucky, and sometimes we're not... however then theres those times where it seems like youre lucky, and the branch isnt going to break out from under you sending you to your demise... but then you hear a crack, and you're unsure if its the branch you're standing on, or just another branch blowing in the breeze, so you start to worry... the wind is blowing and everything seems to get more and more unclear, you cant tell if your branch is going to break or not... its like when youre watching a really good movie or tv show, and somethings about to happen.. but you dont know if it will but theyre hinting at it, and your on the edge of your seat screaming at the tv! clutching at your pillow going "no no dont! dont do it!!! " or "yes yes! hurry up! do it already!" like one of those moments when you almost want to cover your eyes and hide cuz you cant bear to watch it!
like a shark attack (or for me... a spider), but you have to watch it cause you need to know whats going to happen! but its so overwhelming that you dont know what to do, or whats going to happen, it could easily go either way... and you dont even know which way you want it to go anymore.... if the shark attacks then the person dies... but its such a great show of carnage that you kinda really want to see it happen.....just like some outcomes of decisions..... do i want this branch to hold me till i reach the next???? or do i want to fall back down and land on a lower one... a more secure one that i was on earlier???? i already took the leap... but now im unsure... i thought i heard it crack... was it the right branch? or was it the wrong one? or was it the right one, but the wrong time.... should I have waited? till maybe the wind died down or the air wasnt so cold?
So now im just waiting... on the edge of my seat..... screaming... clutching my pillow... trying not to look but really wanting to hurry up and have it happen...... so much suspense.... did i do the right thing??
planet earth is blue, and there's nothing I can do....
can you hear me major tom?
If only life could be easier, and decisions made unconciously, as though we already knew what were the right decisions and the wrong ones... or whether to make one at all or not at this time....
I feel lost... lets just put that out there for a moment... utterly lost... not udderly lost like a baby cow lookin for its mother.. but utterly.....in so many ways i suppose, ill try not to get into it too much, i hate those emo cunts out there
Im just rambling, tis what I do, i know this is boring as shit to you, who gives a fuck about what i say when im half asleep anyways... i should hope the answer to that is no one... but i guess well find out...
just like those decisions... we make them, and then we find out if they worked or not... we dont find out how we feel about a decision until we make it... so we're constantly going out on a limb... a tretorous one at that... it could break at any time. but we wander out anyways.. and sometimes we're lucky, and sometimes we're not... however then theres those times where it seems like youre lucky, and the branch isnt going to break out from under you sending you to your demise... but then you hear a crack, and you're unsure if its the branch you're standing on, or just another branch blowing in the breeze, so you start to worry... the wind is blowing and everything seems to get more and more unclear, you cant tell if your branch is going to break or not... its like when youre watching a really good movie or tv show, and somethings about to happen.. but you dont know if it will but theyre hinting at it, and your on the edge of your seat screaming at the tv! clutching at your pillow going "no no dont! dont do it!!! " or "yes yes! hurry up! do it already!" like one of those moments when you almost want to cover your eyes and hide cuz you cant bear to watch it!
like a shark attack (or for me... a spider), but you have to watch it cause you need to know whats going to happen! but its so overwhelming that you dont know what to do, or whats going to happen, it could easily go either way... and you dont even know which way you want it to go anymore.... if the shark attacks then the person dies... but its such a great show of carnage that you kinda really want to see it happen.....just like some outcomes of decisions..... do i want this branch to hold me till i reach the next???? or do i want to fall back down and land on a lower one... a more secure one that i was on earlier???? i already took the leap... but now im unsure... i thought i heard it crack... was it the right branch? or was it the wrong one? or was it the right one, but the wrong time.... should I have waited? till maybe the wind died down or the air wasnt so cold?
So now im just waiting... on the edge of my seat..... screaming... clutching my pillow... trying not to look but really wanting to hurry up and have it happen...... so much suspense.... did i do the right thing??
planet earth is blue, and there's nothing I can do....
can you hear me major tom?