the end,,,, what is it?
When u realize that there is nothing left to live for,,,, when u realize the one thing in life u want is the hardest and rarest of things to find?
when u decide u dont want to keep looking for it?
when is enough enough?
"i just cant run, its killing me..."
other people,,,, i choose my own path, and i choose one of lonleyness (sP) becaue i am sick of pain, i am sick of people jurting other people, i am sick of the games that people play in life to get themselves by in there own meager existinece, i am sick of looking fo rthe good in people, in meeting strangers, because they all have something in common, selfish. themselves, how do they get what they want tonight?
why is that? i want what i want, but i dont think i play games to get it? i could fuck with more than a few chicks and not be alone (and some other people for friends, but whats the point if its fake).
and thats my problem.
i want something realer than reality i think, i cant live in the moment because i know the moment always ends, but i cant live in the future, becuase with out the moment, the present, there is no future, and with out either there is nothing, even though there is everything, but i just cant stolp my brain and enjoy it, and live with it, and deal with everyone coming and going, i want somoen to stay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thats when i realize my time is spent here.
sometimes it makes me think its my time to go.....
grow old alone,,, who wants that....'only the good die young" such a bullshit phrase,,,,,,
plod along this long and lonley journey alone,,,, thats the kicker though, i coul dhave som many more freinds, but i dont let my self,,,,,,,
i want someone, but i dont want anyone
When u realize that there is nothing left to live for,,,, when u realize the one thing in life u want is the hardest and rarest of things to find?
when u decide u dont want to keep looking for it?
when is enough enough?
"i just cant run, its killing me..."
other people,,,, i choose my own path, and i choose one of lonleyness (sP) becaue i am sick of pain, i am sick of people jurting other people, i am sick of the games that people play in life to get themselves by in there own meager existinece, i am sick of looking fo rthe good in people, in meeting strangers, because they all have something in common, selfish. themselves, how do they get what they want tonight?
why is that? i want what i want, but i dont think i play games to get it? i could fuck with more than a few chicks and not be alone (and some other people for friends, but whats the point if its fake).
and thats my problem.
i want something realer than reality i think, i cant live in the moment because i know the moment always ends, but i cant live in the future, becuase with out the moment, the present, there is no future, and with out either there is nothing, even though there is everything, but i just cant stolp my brain and enjoy it, and live with it, and deal with everyone coming and going, i want somoen to stay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thats when i realize my time is spent here.
sometimes it makes me think its my time to go.....
grow old alone,,, who wants that....'only the good die young" such a bullshit phrase,,,,,,
plod along this long and lonley journey alone,,,, thats the kicker though, i coul dhave som many more freinds, but i dont let my self,,,,,,,
i want someone, but i dont want anyone