Today, it's "Choose your own Journal Entry"
Option #1
I've discovered that I'm vain. I really thought I wasn't. I mean, after all, I don't usually give a shit about what people think of my looks. But this is different. This is what I think of my looks. So, I'm done being pregnant, right? And I'm lucky that within the first 3 weeks, I had lost damn near all of the weight I put on. Right now I weigh what I did before I got pregnant. But thanks to these fucking fibroids, I still have a huge belly. My uterus is measuring the same as about a 16 week pregnancy, and there are a couple of additional tumors outside of it. Fucking yeeha.
It's driving me crazy. I feel huge (I know it's nothing compared to the end of prego, but still). No clothes fit except my maternity clothes that I'm fucking sick of.
Dammit, I wanna be the sexy mom, not the "um, yeah" mom.
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Option #2
To complete the list,
21. I'm absolutely not fond of anime. ((Actually, hentai)) As a matter of fact, it kind of annoys me. The fetishization of everything Japanese has gotten pretty old in my opinion. Really, I should love it, because it's utterly fiction and therefore even less competition than "regular" porn. And yet, those tiny girls with their big eyes just make me want to break things, not fuck things.
22. I cry in traffic.
23. Sophie is the third child I've mothered, and the only one whose actual mother I am.
24. I've been the "dumpee" only once. I've been turned down many many times, though.
25. High heeled boots make me feel sexy.
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Option #3
It's my girlfriend's birthday. You're probably a better friend than me and you probably already knew that and wished her a happy birthday, but if not, GET ON WITH IT.
And, just for the record, she's a hundred times more beautiful in person.
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Option #4
Snore.
Option #1
I've discovered that I'm vain. I really thought I wasn't. I mean, after all, I don't usually give a shit about what people think of my looks. But this is different. This is what I think of my looks. So, I'm done being pregnant, right? And I'm lucky that within the first 3 weeks, I had lost damn near all of the weight I put on. Right now I weigh what I did before I got pregnant. But thanks to these fucking fibroids, I still have a huge belly. My uterus is measuring the same as about a 16 week pregnancy, and there are a couple of additional tumors outside of it. Fucking yeeha.
It's driving me crazy. I feel huge (I know it's nothing compared to the end of prego, but still). No clothes fit except my maternity clothes that I'm fucking sick of.
Dammit, I wanna be the sexy mom, not the "um, yeah" mom.
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Option #2
To complete the list,
21. I'm absolutely not fond of anime. ((Actually, hentai)) As a matter of fact, it kind of annoys me. The fetishization of everything Japanese has gotten pretty old in my opinion. Really, I should love it, because it's utterly fiction and therefore even less competition than "regular" porn. And yet, those tiny girls with their big eyes just make me want to break things, not fuck things.
22. I cry in traffic.
23. Sophie is the third child I've mothered, and the only one whose actual mother I am.
24. I've been the "dumpee" only once. I've been turned down many many times, though.
25. High heeled boots make me feel sexy.
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Option #3
It's my girlfriend's birthday. You're probably a better friend than me and you probably already knew that and wished her a happy birthday, but if not, GET ON WITH IT.
And, just for the record, she's a hundred times more beautiful in person.
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Option #4
Snore.
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
jonnytrrrash7:
i'm going with #4, but only because i'm feeling very tired right now.......Hope you and yours are well or feeling better!!
aoife:
yeah. I'm sure it is. I can't even fathom--dating a guy with a kid was quite scary enough.