sam_man_ther

So tell me, What's your worst fear?

I think I am slowly going to have to stop driving. I'm serious.

Today i'm driving home from work, get off JTB onto San Pablo, I see Jacksonville's Finest. and slowwwww the hell down. Like 20 under. Cause I start freaking out... Then the cop turns on his blinker and gets behind me,

Oh, my, god,

I started having a panic attack. Dead ass serious. I could NOT breathe. I just kept thinking, "Omg, this dude is gonna find SOMETHING, anyTHING, just to pull me over. Then there is gonna be come outstanding warrant for my arrest and I go back into jail"

I'm insane. Those are the thoughts that really go through my head if a cop is anywhere near me, while i'm driving.

Like I said, I have a feeling one day, I will not be able to drive anymore because of this. I'm so fucking serious. I freak the fuck out. My stupid messed up mind thinks there is SOMETHING this cop is gonna get me for. I don't know.

I got pulled over twice since July. Once with Justin, the night I got out of Jail.. and he just wanted to ask what we were doing. And second, I was driving justin's truck and he just felt like pulling me over, just to say, i need bumpers. Needless to say, for nothing, both times.

Before that? I got pulled over for stuff I got ticketed for, nothing to just annoy me, all legit stuff. Like, my 1st ever ticket was a speeding ticket, after that, nothing for a while, then I got pulled for driving on a suspended license, then I got in a car accident, although I didn't get ticketed for that, wasn't my fault, then, in Georgia, for speeding, all legit shit.

Now, I hate cops, I can't stand them, I feel like they are gonna get bored and just find something random to pull me over for.

Also, on ST. Patricks Day, cops came to the party I was at. Justin and Rob talked to them outside, they ask if Ms. Minton is there too.. and pull up a mugshot.

*grumbles*
and I don't hate authority at all. Before, I didn't care if I saw I cop, they never bothered me before. Now, I am so scared of them. I just think, "They are the ones that have authority to put me in jail" and that, ladies and gentlemen, Is my worst fear.

I have officially been pimped....
uhh..
traumatized?