salo120

When did it start to seem childish to think philosophically I wonder? I was laying in bed and all these big picture "what if's" started running though my head... stuff I don't have the intellect to put to words.
I remember when being deep was a good thing, people thought you were interesting. Maybe I've gotten to an age where everyone you meet and know doesn't want a deep thinker.. they want someone with no baggage or drama, someone that doesn't make them reflect on how their lives turned out and all their unhappiness.
Am I the one that's unhappy? Or is everyone else with their shallow relationships? Maybe both.
I've been trying to make friends for a long time now and all of the people I've gotten really close to have moved away AND let me down. While I'd like to give up I'm too stubborn. All of these film quotes pop into my head like Billy Crystal from City Slickers "Do you ever think to yourself.. This is the best I'm ever gonna look, this is the best I'm ever gonna feel, this is the best I'm ever gonna do... and it ain't that great?" And while I laugh at it, it's often how I feel day to day.
I invite someone to prove me wrong. Someone to read this and pursue an ongoing friendship with me. Doesn't everyone deserve a few close friends they can count on?