salival

you would:

never remember
you severed
the tether
of lipstick and leather

this way is much better
cassettes that you sent her
and honeydew nectar
three words and nine letters
it sounds so self centered

i loved you

i said it and no
i regret it
became like a sickness
and both of us let it
fill up the spaces inside that had died
all the times that i wept
and you didn't even cry

when you told me about all of the other guys
how they'd touch and caress
and put fingers inside

you

aborted the fetus
washed up, stood tall
now your hands are the cleanest
and i took the fall

remember

before writing me off like a missed contraceptive
be receptive the stilborn was not my objective

'se me abondona lo peor de mi vida,
ni llama ni charla, estuves frigida'

you polished your boots
and studied real hard
and i tried to survive
flat ass broke with no car
my grandma got cancer
the moped got stolen
the cops were all crooked
cold winter was blowing

icicle stab to the nost and the face
and i didn't exist so i wasn't replaced

two crows in the hand and one in the hole
and i'm harvesting karma for all that you stole
film negative positive papermate ink
and a few one night stands
but you didn't think
your ways could change
the grace and face of a man
but i'm changed and ashamed
and i'll never hold stake
someday you'll realize and your peers will say

a bad wife
a good fuck

a great widow someday

a good life
some bad luck

but hey

you would make a great widow someday
you will make a great widow one day