Well it took about three months but the girl I'm in love with has officially and finally figured herself out. Which is good for me because I was going nuts. Apparently, she was into another guy, which should have been a red flag for me but was spending all her time with me. Which made me suspect. I mean if this other guy is at the forefront of her mind why am I the one she is spending all her time with. So after three months of that and me never letting myself slip into the friend zone. I finally got to the bottom of it. I finally figured out what was going on. Thank god to because it was driving me batshit. Just really glad to be in the know finally and done wondering. On the plus side she has closed so many chapters in her life, leaving only one thing yet to do. I'm here for her, she loves me, and I love her. Let's see where time takes us.
Saintpepsi
Saintpepsi
cheshire_:
awe that is sweet I hope everything works out for you 
saintpepsi:
Sadly it did not... even though every aspect of her says yes to me, she's told me I'm perfect, that I'm the most amazing guy she has ever met, even that she loves me. But... She says her gut tells her no. So she's going to trust that. She's broken my heart 3 times, each time I give her up she pulls me back. I should have let her go the first time. I guess I was just another chapter to close. She claims we are not inn a relationship... but this is the closest thing to a perfect coupling so long as we don't talk about us seriously. Yet I do want more than just friends with benifits. I am maddly in love.