That's it I'm a failure as a man. I make friends like a champ but getting a girl friend is like running a marathon when you are only a thrower. I just can't seem to commit to my desire. This truly blows me away in that I have successfully had great relationships. I just can't seem to get into them. That start up point is a matter of some contention and maybe it's because i go after girls that are just awful for me. I mean really the worst and maybe that's what we are drawn to. I don't know take for instance tonight I was with a girl named Stormy and yeah that's her real name. I mean name a girl stormy and just assume she'll be a typhoon. Crazy, fun, sexy, and fucking dangerous. She exhibited all the same things my Ex Cherry did. Yeah a girl named Cherry. Holy shit where do I find these girls. Forces of nature and I come in like I would have a chance of surviving this tornado. The last one nearly killed me. Then again when i go for a girl that seems the be the exact opposite I'm withdrawn and bored. The one girl I really like is in a loveless marriage so that's a thing. FACEPALM!!! Dear god i'm hopeless. Anyway rant over. Yay