Login
Forgot Password?

OR

Login with Google Login with Twitter Login with Facebook
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • SuicideGirls
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
Vital Stats

saintadatha

United Kingdom

Member Since 2004

Followers 26 Following 83

  • Everything
  • Photos
  • Video
  • Blogs
  • Groups
  • From Others

Wednesday Aug 31, 2005

Aug 31, 2005
0
  • Facebook
  • Tweet
  • Email
i've been holding myself tight.

i have learned from many an individual that the first step in relieving tension is to recognise its existence; the first step to avoid a trap is to know that is there.

i hold myself in a bubble of caution. though mostly when i think about what i'm doing... which is only a problem because i think so much.

it feels as though i oscillate unpredictably between passionate living, all devil-may-care and experience-to-the-full, and then i lose faith, or slow down, or lose my pace... and then i introspect (can that even be used as a verb? regardless...) and the illusion falls apart. i stop experiencing, the devil suddenly cares, and the fun falls out of the bag.

ask around: it happens. maybe youve even seen it.

question:
how do you know which mask is real? is one any more real than the other? is there a real face somewhere beneath them both?

the first step to relieve tension is to know that you are tense.
the next step is to locate it, to feel, to understand it.
the third is to breathe and let go... to relax.

but the problem is that letting go is do-able,
but that letting go permanently is a damn site harder.

question:
you have a round-the-world ticket, let's say 5 stops over 1 year...
where do you go? and why?

and a question i shall at some point come back to (since it is so central to me at the mo):
how socially constructed is your body and your sense of physical experience?
and how malleable is that? how changeable?

and a last, less heavy question:
what's your favourite flower/plant/tree?

ads
xxx
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
qob:
Your journal entries are always great to read, so full of thoughts and feelings expressed so well.

to the questions.

5 stops..this is hard...too many options
1. Invercargill, NZ. I've wanted to visit new zealand for long time and a very special person lives in that town.
2. India because it is such a facinating country
3. Sao Paulo, Brazil. I will go there one day
4. Iceland.I wanna go horse trekking in Iceland.
5. London. I think I would stop there to see all my lovely friends.
I dont know what to anwer the second question so I have to skip it..

I think I like all kind of trees, doesnt really matter which kind. they are all beautiful and good to have around.

Have a good weekend!! smile kiss

ps. I'm not sure if I said this already but I like your website smile
Sep 1, 2005
anaphalaxis:
first:
masks.... remember that old saying about the wind changing and your face staying like that?
You become what you pretend to be.

5 stops. Sounds troublesome, but I get a whole year to do it? Much less of a problem!:
Syria and surrounds, particularly Petra
Uzbekestan: Tashkent (ancient samerkand)
China: quite enough to get along with there.
South east asia: already been to Thailand and Cambodia, but not nearly enough! Vietnam also figures high on my list.
South Sea Islands: I have months right? Well then I want to visit them all! Anthropologists paradise. Ok, so you might get your balls cut off by angry natives: Last frontier then. Excellent!

next question:
People's actions, body language and all that stuff is totally socially constructed. I don't think people inherit genetic body language, and if they do there's still considerable scope for social imprinting. Your relationship with your parents is still a social phenomenon, and their actions are socially constructed also. Anyone who tells you otherwise wants to believe it for some reason. We are all products of our time and environment. Any student of history knows that all too well.

Final question:
Japanese maples in all their shapes and forms.
Sep 3, 2005

More Blogs

  • 04.12.05
    14

    Wednesday Apr 13, 2005

    deadlines blow the paragraph i've just given up on so i can …
  • 04.10.05
    13

    Sunday Apr 10, 2005

    eight days of being intellectual; three days of being mental; ... …
  • 04.08.05
    10

    Saturday Apr 09, 2005

    I've been feeling a twinge. I think I recognise it, though it's be…
  • 03.24.05
    10

    Thursday Mar 24, 2005

    Monday's child hit Thursday, and is almost to ready to puke. Q. U…
  • 03.21.05
    4

    Monday Mar 21, 2005

    Monday's child is full of life. I got paid for that Diverse Commun…
  • 03.18.05
    3

    Friday Mar 18, 2005

    ... and my slightly strange and achingly long day ended with a kiss f…
  • 03.14.05
    23

    Monday Mar 14, 2005

    Watching Clockwork Orange on C4. "My brothers, would you believe?" …
  • 03.12.05
    5

    Saturday Mar 12, 2005

    Read More
  • 03.10.05
    8

    Thursday Mar 10, 2005

    Ha ha! Wahey! (and further such jubilated outbursts) That article …
  • 03.08.05
    3

    Tuesday Mar 08, 2005

    If I promise to ease off on the polysyllabic verbal diorhea, will tha…

We at SuicideGirls have been celebrating alternative pin-up girls for:

23
years
9
months
28
days
  • 5,509,826 fans
  • 41,393 fans
  • 10,327,617 followers
  • 4,593 SuicideGirls
  • 1,117,733 followers
  • 14,933,073 photos
  • 321,315 followers
  • 61,423,823 comments
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
  • Help
  • About
  • Press
  • LIVE

Legal/Tos | DMCA | Privacy Policy | 18 U.S.C. 2257 Record-Keeping Requirements Compliance Statement | Contact Us | Vendo Payment Support
©SuicideGirls 2001-2025

Press enter to search
Fast Hi-res

Click here to join & see it all...

Crop your photo