saintadatha

i've been holding myself tight.

i have learned from many an individual that the first step in relieving tension is to recognise its existence; the first step to avoid a trap is to know that is there.

i hold myself in a bubble of caution. though mostly when i think about what i'm doing... which is only a problem because i think so much.

it feels as though i oscillate unpredictably between passionate living, all devil-may-care and experience-to-the-full, and then i lose faith, or slow down, or lose my pace... and then i introspect (can that even be used as a verb? regardless...) and the illusion falls apart. i stop experiencing, the devil suddenly cares, and the fun falls out of the bag.

ask around: it happens. maybe youve even seen it.

question:
how do you know which mask is real? is one any more real than the other? is there a real face somewhere beneath them both?

the first step to relieve tension is to know that you are tense.
the next step is to locate it, to feel, to understand it.
the third is to breathe and let go... to relax.

but the problem is that letting go is do-able,
but that letting go permanently is a damn site harder.

question:
you have a round-the-world ticket, let's say 5 stops over 1 year...
where do you go? and why?

and a question i shall at some point come back to (since it is so central to me at the mo):
how socially constructed is your body and your sense of physical experience?
and how malleable is that? how changeable?

and a last, less heavy question:
what's your favourite flower/plant/tree?

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