My summer is almost over, how fleeting these things are...
I am excited to get back to school, although in my heart I feel like I should be way beyond this stage in life and onto bigger and more productive things.
My brother is back in Georgia, but at least he's not going back to Iraq as far as he knows, and that makes me happier than anything
I'm planning on making a trip to see him in Savannah this October, secretly to scout the place out and decide whether or not it's someplace I could really see myself living. There's some good schools down there, and it's far enough away from the midwest to make me feel comfortable.
It's so weird when some of your old friends from high school come in contact with you (mind you I'm 19, high school wasn't THAT long ago for me) and tell how they're married or having kids or sometimes both. It truly baffles me. Girls the same age as me are married, or already have a kid, sometimes more than one. It's crazy! The farthest thing from my mind right now is having babies, and although I love my boyfriend and could really see myself being married to him (maybe wishful thinking, who knows), I always attach a "someday" to that. Someday we might get married. Someday we might have a baby together.
At 19 years old we are so young, still so naive, still searching and planning and growing. Why crowd the confusion and frustration even further with husbands and babies?
I don't know, maybe it's just that I know for sure that I'm no where near mature enough handle marriage or family yet, so I can't possibly fathom any other girl my age being able to do it.
But, take for instance, a friend of mine whom for privacy reasons I shall simply call H.
She recently left her boyfriend of three years for a guy she had just met. The relationship was falling apart anyway and long since doomed for failure, so needless to say I saw it coming miles away, and was unopposed to the idea of someone else making her happy, even if I did think she needed some time to herself for a while first before leaping immediately into another serious relationship. So H and her new boyfriend, who will call J, have been dating for two weeks, are "madly in love" and are already talking about getting married. I said hold the fucking phone, are you crazy?! You're seriously thinking, talking even, about getting married to someone you've known for less than a month?? She says, "Well he's got a really good job, and I could be pregnant anyway, so..."
So, what? Having a child with someone automatically means you should go ahead and marry them? I'm not exaggerating when I say that everyone I have ever known who got married just because the girl got knocked up, were divorced within the year. It's naive and unrealistic. Babies are not always enough to keep people together, and neither are marriage licenses. And, I might add, neither is his impressive salary.
I would also like to add that she is only 17, and I'm not even sure how old he is, I haven't even known him long enough to ask.
We've been trying to help her come to her senses but there's only so much we can do...
Sigh
Well I'm becoming a bit exasperated with this whole finding a good photographer thing. It's hard for me to find someone I think could trust enough (and, sorry guys, but honestly I could probably only ever trust a woman to do this), and when I do find one I think I could trust, she is either too far away or blows me off at the last minute.
It's rather frustrating and disheartening
That's all for now, but I leave you with this
I am excited to get back to school, although in my heart I feel like I should be way beyond this stage in life and onto bigger and more productive things.
My brother is back in Georgia, but at least he's not going back to Iraq as far as he knows, and that makes me happier than anything
I'm planning on making a trip to see him in Savannah this October, secretly to scout the place out and decide whether or not it's someplace I could really see myself living. There's some good schools down there, and it's far enough away from the midwest to make me feel comfortable.
It's so weird when some of your old friends from high school come in contact with you (mind you I'm 19, high school wasn't THAT long ago for me) and tell how they're married or having kids or sometimes both. It truly baffles me. Girls the same age as me are married, or already have a kid, sometimes more than one. It's crazy! The farthest thing from my mind right now is having babies, and although I love my boyfriend and could really see myself being married to him (maybe wishful thinking, who knows), I always attach a "someday" to that. Someday we might get married. Someday we might have a baby together.
At 19 years old we are so young, still so naive, still searching and planning and growing. Why crowd the confusion and frustration even further with husbands and babies?
I don't know, maybe it's just that I know for sure that I'm no where near mature enough handle marriage or family yet, so I can't possibly fathom any other girl my age being able to do it.
But, take for instance, a friend of mine whom for privacy reasons I shall simply call H.
She recently left her boyfriend of three years for a guy she had just met. The relationship was falling apart anyway and long since doomed for failure, so needless to say I saw it coming miles away, and was unopposed to the idea of someone else making her happy, even if I did think she needed some time to herself for a while first before leaping immediately into another serious relationship. So H and her new boyfriend, who will call J, have been dating for two weeks, are "madly in love" and are already talking about getting married. I said hold the fucking phone, are you crazy?! You're seriously thinking, talking even, about getting married to someone you've known for less than a month?? She says, "Well he's got a really good job, and I could be pregnant anyway, so..."
So, what? Having a child with someone automatically means you should go ahead and marry them? I'm not exaggerating when I say that everyone I have ever known who got married just because the girl got knocked up, were divorced within the year. It's naive and unrealistic. Babies are not always enough to keep people together, and neither are marriage licenses. And, I might add, neither is his impressive salary.
I would also like to add that she is only 17, and I'm not even sure how old he is, I haven't even known him long enough to ask.
We've been trying to help her come to her senses but there's only so much we can do...
Sigh
Well I'm becoming a bit exasperated with this whole finding a good photographer thing. It's hard for me to find someone I think could trust enough (and, sorry guys, but honestly I could probably only ever trust a woman to do this), and when I do find one I think I could trust, she is either too far away or blows me off at the last minute.
It's rather frustrating and disheartening
That's all for now, but I leave you with this
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I don't really understand why people get married so young sometimes either. I mean for serious whats the damn rush anyways? If you work well together and you're exclusive it should be all good for a little while i guess.
yes customers can be total douchebags. They're not terrible where I work but when I've been asked to convert Rubbles before it can be kinda strange.
Thanx so much for inviting me.
kixxx