saida

I have had PMS pretty bad begining this week.
I feel bad, I think I have made him feel like I dont want him here.
And I do of course.
But my mood swings are so fast, and severe, even though most times it goes by unnoticed. Which is what I try to do.
I hate that my moods or anyones bad moods rub off.

Sometimes I need to be alone.
Then I dont want to be.
I dont want to be touched in any manner.
But if I want to touch you thats ok.
Then you can touch me but stay still, and dont caress. Dont hold my hand and rub me with your thumb.
Do nice things.
But dont be sweet.
I MAKE NO FUCKING SENSE

Sometimes I just am not very affectionate. ( i wish i were)
Then other times I melt with compassion and love.


I just may be one of the most contradictory people to walk the earth this lifetime.

I said "sorry"
he said "its ok baby, thats just women. They are like cats. Pet them when they want you to. But dont pet them when they dont, they will claw your eyes out. And dont ever rub them the wrong way"
(i have a good one on my hands)


here is a pic from the other day.. happy