Wow, haven't been here on SG for a while.. I've been getting rather bored with it really... Lately it's just seems corporate to me now. More and more girls I see here are looking 'preppy ' to me. Some with zero tats or piercings not even a single step of color in their hair. It has some what pissed me off. OK I lied, it really pisses me off. It has also offended me. I also keep noticing the same and same photographers landing at of the day, plainly obvious no matter how hard I bust my ass to try and be apart of SG and try my damnedest to become pink obviously I'm not going have much luck unless I befriend someone who's in the "it crowd". And spend a shout ton of money for sets that'll probably never see the light of SOTD. And for what? To get the money back I spent for the set? Ohio has practically died in the world of SG. The is nothing ever happening here unless it's something not apart of SG like hell city tat fest that'll have a little SG booth. OOOOOO.. I've noticed just like in the regular modeling world, either be in California, know all the right people, and have allot of money to spend or you're pretty much doomed from the get go. It has really really REALLY broken my heart. I thought solo much of SG. Don't get me wrong I still love all the cool ass people who're part of the community but what SG itself in a whole has become.... I have very very very little hope for myself to actually become something and change my life with SG line I used to dream. Be in a DVD travel the world be on showtime etc etc etc... No I never desired being famous of course not. Just checking my life with the things and with the people I admire. But that dream has utterly been shot down and had crashed and burned. I can't even see radeo the same way anymore, which hurts me truly. I literally lived her to death. I would've married her before... I feel like I've been dumped by a boyfriend I've been with for ten years. And that is really really painful. I'm sorry if I've upset any of you. It's none of you still love you all for loving me and having faith in me, it's SG as a brand and what it's become. Money ruins everyone eventually once you get enough you can't get enough and will do anything to keep getting it and appeasing those who shouldn't have anything to do with what your about but then you wouldn't get sponsered. Something SG had promised they never do and is what they're standing against and are about. But they've broken it to me. I'm crushed. I'll always still be apart of SG and apart of the people and who knows, maybe one day they'll change for the better and be like how they used to be. But I highly doubt that. This hurts. Meh... :-( please don't hate me, you can't tell me you haven't seen others Bitch about pretty much the same thing I am? That's what brought this to a reality to me. I'm not the only one who feels the same and more and more people are noticing or everyday. SG seems like a really sad and angry place lately. Always seeing posts and comments where people are offended by what SG is doing and becoming. And obviously they don't care to try and do anything to please their beloved fans. I pray they are noticing all the complaining and are trying to do something about it. I really pray. Love you all and I'll trying to be more active if anyone really even gives a shit. Good night and kisses.
