Those that are close to me know that I went through the ringer last semester because of various people and various reasons. I've had the chance for the past 1-2 months to take a breather, step back and just look at and think about all these events that took places. These past 2 months have shown me
I had so many questions and I couldn't find the answers...but I sat back and watched things unfold and tried not to be too hard on myself for not finding the answers right away...sure enough they were presented to me...and in the places I least expected them to be. The past couple of weeks particularly have been extremely eye opening and I even discovered answers to questions that I didn't know I even had. I also have a new ways of dealing with some people that just can't seem to stop hurting me...we'll see how this works out.
I fell in love...with love and particularly 2 movies. A couple of weeks ago I saw P.S. I love you with my best friend Heather and her boyfriend Daniel (who is my friend too!). It was such a great movie in my opinion. This isn't something I need to be validated or debate, it's my opinion, if you don't agree stop reading right now...
It's renewed my faith in love and relationships. I know it's just a movie...fiction...but if I were to get the chance to share a small percentage of the love that was displayed in the movie, I'll be oh so lucky. I also know that it is possible and these types of stories...while there are few...do really exist. It also served as a reminder why I love guys from the UK, they're manly and romantic and not afraid to show both sides!
Well tonight I saw 27 Dresses with Heather, Daniel and Carlos. This movie also spoke to me. It was such a clear message. Take away all the weddings and the bridesmaid dresses and you basically had a version of me...there were times that I found it hard to watch but I couldn't not watch it...Not because it was a bad or scary movie, but because the pain I've been working through is still so fresh and it hit even single ouce of pain inside me. If you haven't seen it, stop reading and come back after you have because I may ruin the ending for you...Basically Katherine Heigl never says no to people and she's always taking care of others at her own expense, she holds her tongue, doesn't speak up in her defense (at first) and is the one who gets hurt the most by the people that are supposed to be the closest to her...by the people who should be the last ones to cause her pain, let alone allow her to do those things to herself...of course things work out, she mends things with friends and she gets the guy...this part isn't as realistic as life tends to be or I wish it would be be...but hey, it wouldn't be a movie without a happy ending.
That was basically me a few months ago...I never said no to people, no matter how much I wanted to...I even volunteered to help people out...I rarely asked for help and when I finally did, the people who constantly proclaim(ed) to be my closest friends are the ones that stabbed me in the back while looking at the smile on my face that I put up to hide the pain in my eyes. I mean she even defended those people with the same line I gave (how can I be mad at them if they don't know how I feel because I didn't tell them?) I said that so many times. I cried myself to sleep so many nights. Fortunately, like the movie, I had true friends; even though it was very few, who saw thru my facade of a smile and into my eyes to all of the pain that I was trying to hide...they stepped in and pointed out that I was doing more harm than good to myself and that's where I stopped and have been taking a hard look ever since. And for that, I will always truly be grateful to have them in my life.
So 2 great movies that sent me very clear messages about live, friendships and love. Go see the movies!
I had so many questions and I couldn't find the answers...but I sat back and watched things unfold and tried not to be too hard on myself for not finding the answers right away...sure enough they were presented to me...and in the places I least expected them to be. The past couple of weeks particularly have been extremely eye opening and I even discovered answers to questions that I didn't know I even had. I also have a new ways of dealing with some people that just can't seem to stop hurting me...we'll see how this works out.
I fell in love...with love and particularly 2 movies. A couple of weeks ago I saw P.S. I love you with my best friend Heather and her boyfriend Daniel (who is my friend too!). It was such a great movie in my opinion. This isn't something I need to be validated or debate, it's my opinion, if you don't agree stop reading right now...
It's renewed my faith in love and relationships. I know it's just a movie...fiction...but if I were to get the chance to share a small percentage of the love that was displayed in the movie, I'll be oh so lucky. I also know that it is possible and these types of stories...while there are few...do really exist. It also served as a reminder why I love guys from the UK, they're manly and romantic and not afraid to show both sides!
Well tonight I saw 27 Dresses with Heather, Daniel and Carlos. This movie also spoke to me. It was such a clear message. Take away all the weddings and the bridesmaid dresses and you basically had a version of me...there were times that I found it hard to watch but I couldn't not watch it...Not because it was a bad or scary movie, but because the pain I've been working through is still so fresh and it hit even single ouce of pain inside me. If you haven't seen it, stop reading and come back after you have because I may ruin the ending for you...Basically Katherine Heigl never says no to people and she's always taking care of others at her own expense, she holds her tongue, doesn't speak up in her defense (at first) and is the one who gets hurt the most by the people that are supposed to be the closest to her...by the people who should be the last ones to cause her pain, let alone allow her to do those things to herself...of course things work out, she mends things with friends and she gets the guy...this part isn't as realistic as life tends to be or I wish it would be be...but hey, it wouldn't be a movie without a happy ending.
That was basically me a few months ago...I never said no to people, no matter how much I wanted to...I even volunteered to help people out...I rarely asked for help and when I finally did, the people who constantly proclaim(ed) to be my closest friends are the ones that stabbed me in the back while looking at the smile on my face that I put up to hide the pain in my eyes. I mean she even defended those people with the same line I gave (how can I be mad at them if they don't know how I feel because I didn't tell them?) I said that so many times. I cried myself to sleep so many nights. Fortunately, like the movie, I had true friends; even though it was very few, who saw thru my facade of a smile and into my eyes to all of the pain that I was trying to hide...they stepped in and pointed out that I was doing more harm than good to myself and that's where I stopped and have been taking a hard look ever since. And for that, I will always truly be grateful to have them in my life.
So 2 great movies that sent me very clear messages about live, friendships and love. Go see the movies!