sadielee

been so weird lately. feelin up and down and confused and i dont know.
mostly confused. i want a lot. i think thats the problem. i want to not be so lonely. i want to not be so tired. i want to not be here. i want to be there. i want to be wanted. i want to sleep. i want to be happy. i want to be awake. i want to not feel so panicky about something i have no control over that shouldnt bug me but does. i want to stop being such fucking girl about some stuff. i want to be warm. i want to be secure. i want to be laughed at. i want to rewind. i want to speed up. i want to stop. i want this weirdness in the pit of my stomach to go away. i want a puppy. i want to breathe. i want to stop breathing. i want everything to not be so hard. i want me back. i want to not ruin everything by being a pain in the ass. i want to know why i feel the need to be such a pain in the ass. i want to run. i want to fuck. i want to not fuck. i want to fuck specifically. i want to fuck anyone. i want to stop all this shit.