sacred

happee valentine's day to everyone!

i seem to be a frequent rider on the emotional rollercoaster that is life!
am i insane?

...and why is it that everytime something starts to go sooo well, something else fucks up and like a domino effect everything gets altered?

i have recently begun taking a religious studies course in school for art history purposes...i am learning a lot, but with how my life is i am fully convinced that there is no god...maybe once upon a time in land far far away there was...but with the state of the world today i can't be a believer...
don't get me wrong there are so many wonderful amazing things in life like love and puppies and the friends we make and flowers and all of the beautiful things that make our lives each so special
...i guess i'm just sad...my chameleon Connor isn't well and i love him sooo much and i have had him for 4 years now and i am watching him suffer as we speak...
as silly as this sounds i haven't cried like this since i can remember...

i need some faith right now!

Luv Sinn