it's beautiful outside. the rooftops are snow covered and the sky is a hazy lavender. sometimes i like this place. my headspace lately has not been so lovely.
i can scarcely be alone anymore without feeling lonely.
i've had bad feelings lately, about almost everything. and i mean, fuck that, where did my sunshiney optimism go?
i wouldn't say i'm depressed..yet..but it's something. post-holiday sadness? the fear of the future...of going nowhere...of just not being able to make it anymore?
insecurities are the worst and i feel like my boyfriend deserves a medal after coaching me through them repeatedly.
i want: excitement. the unexpected. a change of direction. to actually feel like i've seized a day. a new vision. different scenery. self-sufficiency. confidence. ambition. DRIVE.
i can scarcely be alone anymore without feeling lonely.
i've had bad feelings lately, about almost everything. and i mean, fuck that, where did my sunshiney optimism go?
i wouldn't say i'm depressed..yet..but it's something. post-holiday sadness? the fear of the future...of going nowhere...of just not being able to make it anymore?
insecurities are the worst and i feel like my boyfriend deserves a medal after coaching me through them repeatedly.
i want: excitement. the unexpected. a change of direction. to actually feel like i've seized a day. a new vision. different scenery. self-sufficiency. confidence. ambition. DRIVE.
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lastbadger:
Sometimes the Winter landscape can be just blindinly beautiful. I can vibe with that whole feeling of needing a readical change. You wanna rob a bank? I hear like only 8 % of bank robbers are ever caught
veganpunk:
i know how u feel with the post holiday blues. its the michigan winters we have. they are so gloomy and gray they just put u in an unsettling mood.