warren zevon. 
it makes me extra sad b/c he reminds me sooo much of my dad. my sister and i watched a special on vh1 about the last few months of his illness and i can't imagine what he and his family were going through. he was such an awesome person w/the greatest dark sense of humor. i grew up on warren. i will always love warren. and he has the greatest song about alabama, ever.
life has been a bit stressful/busy lately. time to take a deep breath. and a bubble bath.
tommorrow night i'm going to my first gay bar. i hope i can pick up a chick 
i'm decidely not good at picking up anyone though. it's sad. maybe i'll at least TALK to a girl. baby steps. the strip club last night (at which i feel i'm becoming a sort of regular) i realized just how much i need a girlfriend. i've never had a real girlfriend. i had one in highschool but i'm not even sure she was bi. she just liked to parade me around, holding hands. oh, the controversy. we didn't get much further than making out though. we were so pathetically shy and afraid. the only girls i've been with have been good friends that just happened to..well, happen. it was incredibly fun w/them but i think i would really like to have a closer thing w/a female. i'm kind of lonely in general too. i don't NEED someone to be happy, but i admit it does make life more interesting in a way.
do you think there's "someone out there for everyone" or that there isn't just one special person for each individual? i ponder this often myself. i used to fully believe in something like fate. that i had one soulmate who i'd connect with and that would be that. i did have someone like that, but i thought i needed to date around. and now he's dead. so of course now i don't want to believe that was it. so i wonder if maybe there's not one right person, but right qualities, and right times, and right places and situations and things will just work out or not depending on all of these things. i still totally believe in the true love deal, the magic, etc. i just dont know if i believe that there's someone i'm "supposed" to end up with and that it will happen no matter what.
ah, enough rambling. sorry im so neglectful. spank me.
it makes me extra sad b/c he reminds me sooo much of my dad. my sister and i watched a special on vh1 about the last few months of his illness and i can't imagine what he and his family were going through. he was such an awesome person w/the greatest dark sense of humor. i grew up on warren. i will always love warren. and he has the greatest song about alabama, ever.
life has been a bit stressful/busy lately. time to take a deep breath. and a bubble bath.
tommorrow night i'm going to my first gay bar. i hope i can pick up a chick i'm decidely not good at picking up anyone though. it's sad. maybe i'll at least TALK to a girl. baby steps. the strip club last night (at which i feel i'm becoming a sort of regular) i realized just how much i need a girlfriend. i've never had a real girlfriend. i had one in highschool but i'm not even sure she was bi. she just liked to parade me around, holding hands. oh, the controversy. we didn't get much further than making out though. we were so pathetically shy and afraid. the only girls i've been with have been good friends that just happened to..well, happen. it was incredibly fun w/them but i think i would really like to have a closer thing w/a female. i'm kind of lonely in general too. i don't NEED someone to be happy, but i admit it does make life more interesting in a way.
do you think there's "someone out there for everyone" or that there isn't just one special person for each individual? i ponder this often myself. i used to fully believe in something like fate. that i had one soulmate who i'd connect with and that would be that. i did have someone like that, but i thought i needed to date around. and now he's dead. so of course now i don't want to believe that was it. so i wonder if maybe there's not one right person, but right qualities, and right times, and right places and situations and things will just work out or not depending on all of these things. i still totally believe in the true love deal, the magic, etc. i just dont know if i believe that there's someone i'm "supposed" to end up with and that it will happen no matter what.
ah, enough rambling. sorry im so neglectful. spank me.
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Here's hoping for an update, just to see how you are and how your life is.
Bye for now my sweet x