This might sound stupid and a little childish, but my New Years resolution is to fall in love again. I spent seven years in an off-and-on relationship with a woman who always dwelled on my past relationships, hated my tattoos, didn’t like my art, criticized my family and friends, and brought me down in every way. I want 2019 to be a year of healing from that and turning that pain into positivity, healthy living, and love. My friends and family keep telling me that I have so much to offer and that I deserve better, but my low self esteem has gotten the better of me. Too long have I allowed negative people to infiltrate my mind and water down my creativity. But you know what, I am happy to be me. I like who I am and the direction I’m going, and I am going to double down on that this year. Screw the haters and the mental oppressors! 2019 will be the year of the kaleidoscope mind and heart. As Mike Love would say, “Let the healing begin”. Please wish me luck on my journey. As always, much love to you amazing and beautiful suicide girls:) Be a fucking machine in 2019!
