I'd like to start off this blog by letting you know that I am just a "little" drunk.
So, i have a date tomorrow and I am worried about it. I'm not worried for the reasons most people worry about dates. I have met this girl only once. Until recently she lived, and went to college, up near Tulsa. We met online through a personals site and have been talking on the phone for about a month. We do have a lot in common and I find her an easy person to talk to. Even when we met in person, a few weeks ago, I was able to easily talk to her. The thing that has me worried is that she seems to have gotten so attached to me. Even though we talk all the time on the phone I don't feel the urge to say, "I miss you" or "I love you." I don't give my heart out so easily or allow myself to get attached like that so quickly, especially over the phone. As far as physical attraction goes there isn't much. I do like her a lot. Our personalities mix well, but I have this feeling that we won't work out. I am not sure I could ever get that serious with her. I want to tell her but I really don't want to hurt her. I also don't want to be stuck in a relationship out of guilt, because I gave her the impression that we are serious. I have been hurt bad recently and just can't feel that deeply yet. She has also been hurt recently. I don't know quite what to do. I have even considered turning into the classic asshole, lying, cheating guy. But that's not me either. I can't do that especially with all I've been through in the past.
Why ca't I find a decent, intelligent woman who isn't a psycho stalker or a cheating whore?
EDIT: Just realized what time it is, looks like my date is tonight, not tomorrow. Wish me luck, whatever that is.
So, i have a date tomorrow and I am worried about it. I'm not worried for the reasons most people worry about dates. I have met this girl only once. Until recently she lived, and went to college, up near Tulsa. We met online through a personals site and have been talking on the phone for about a month. We do have a lot in common and I find her an easy person to talk to. Even when we met in person, a few weeks ago, I was able to easily talk to her. The thing that has me worried is that she seems to have gotten so attached to me. Even though we talk all the time on the phone I don't feel the urge to say, "I miss you" or "I love you." I don't give my heart out so easily or allow myself to get attached like that so quickly, especially over the phone. As far as physical attraction goes there isn't much. I do like her a lot. Our personalities mix well, but I have this feeling that we won't work out. I am not sure I could ever get that serious with her. I want to tell her but I really don't want to hurt her. I also don't want to be stuck in a relationship out of guilt, because I gave her the impression that we are serious. I have been hurt bad recently and just can't feel that deeply yet. She has also been hurt recently. I don't know quite what to do. I have even considered turning into the classic asshole, lying, cheating guy. But that's not me either. I can't do that especially with all I've been through in the past.
Why ca't I find a decent, intelligent woman who isn't a psycho stalker or a cheating whore?
EDIT: Just realized what time it is, looks like my date is tonight, not tomorrow. Wish me luck, whatever that is.