So lying here in bed at 12:30am I'm thinking of my previous 7 year relationship and my current relationship. So I proposed to my ex girlfriend twice. Second proposal I had the ring tied around a falcons leg and it flew to her. I sacrificed a lot to be with her. Alas she was not one for commitment and we broke off the relationship. Still great friends though.
So in my current relationship I'm afraid of really getting serious. I feel I need time for myself, that I'll loose my freedom, and maybe not wanting a serious relationship. She said she won't wait forever but will wait for now. She's a good person but my brain is telling no. I think it's making excuses to not dive into the relationship.
Did my 7 year relationship with the ex girlfriend cause me to be afraid of commitment? Maybe so.
Here's a photo of the hawk the ring was tied to.