ryder

Well just like an unexpected storm, my life has changed drasticly in one week. I found out I'm pregnant, which I had started to suspect when I was waking up sick as hell. I've been going over so many things in my head, it's weird last time I wanted this so bad, but now I have so much going on. I mean I only just finished one quarter of school, and I still have 6 more to go. We want to move so badly, however that is also gonna get put on hold. I know though that I'm gonna do what I can, having this baby to me is my only option, being married especially. I'm gonna go to school untill I can't get out of bed anymore. And after a break I'm gonna go right back, my mom lives a road away so she'll be able to help us. I'm also scared though, last time I got my hopes up so high, only to have them crushed, if I have to go through that again, I think I'll get my tubes tied! Don't get me wrong I'm excited too, it's just we really weren't planning this (isn't that always how it goes) Well stay tuned I'll probly be doing some interesting journal entries as my life, my body, my emtions, change day to day!