I'm starting to think people don't really like honesty. You here people say this all the time "If you're just honest about it people will understand. But that's not the how I've experienced it. Being honest about thinks doesn't change how people feel a bout it. All that matters is if they would have liked it in the first place. Being honest about how you feel doesn't lead people to being understanding, it they don't like how you feel they may stop being a friend and start being a dick to you. That's even if how you feel is a benign thing. This also extents to opinions. If you ever wonder why a friend wont tell you the truth about not liking an piece of clothing of an activity its because of this. They've experienced people rejecting them just because they don't like exactly what other people like. Is it any wonder people tend to lie. I could tell the truth and say I don't like this and then have you ask whats wrong with me, how could I not like this, why reason do I not like this and have you not invite me to other activities because you suddenly feel I wouldn't like them either. Or I could lie about liking it then just find excuses not to go. Sure when you find out I lied it will go very bad but either way I am going to lose, might as well make it last a bit longer. And I don't like doing this but what choice do I have. I don't feel like I can win either way. And feeling is from experiences, I try being honest I got fucked, I lie I got fucked but less often. One could say that I could feel good about making the moral choice, but whats the point if all I do is suffer and feel miserable for it. One can only take a beating for choosing the high road so many times. I'm not superman, I don't have an iron will. I bend and I break. And then I just be hated for not being stronger. In the end I just cant win.
