runelateralus

Two of my good internet friends "disappeared" from the net. I miss them.

I started playing The Longest Journey. There is something about that game that just amazes me, but I can't put my finger on it. Wonderful game.

I just looked outside, and I just noticed it snowed. I don't care for winter. I don't really like to be shivering. I don't like to be cold. But then again, I do prefer to cold than extremely warm and humid. I just wish the wind chills weren't so bad, especially downtown (stupid Windy City).

Now that I think about it, winter never really appealed to me. Granted that my birthday is in winter, I have the most family gatherings, and the fact it is the time I spend most with my friends (I am usually alone during the summer), there is something about the season I do not care for. I am beginning to wonder if the cold is something to do with it? Or maybe the fact my bronchitius gets extremely bad around this time (people think I smoke or am dying because of how bad it is). And it certainly isn't the fact I am in school. Despite the fact it forces me into odd sleeping patterns, it gives me something to do and it allows me to spend time with friends (my school has an awkward schedule, when most of my friends go back to school in the fall, I am stuck at home for three more weeks that I basically only do work and mope around the house). Odd huh? It is the time I am the most active physically and socially, and I still do not care for it (though I care for summer a lot less).

Or maybe it is the fact I don't have a car, so even though I do a lot of things, I miss out on more. I really need to get my montary priorities straight and concentrate on that. But with my stupidity with money, it won't happen. I am too much of a game junkie. Even though I know I might get $300 this Christmas (which would be a great car fund starter), I know I will buy a new damn video card for my computer and a new hard drive.

In other news, I just looked over my storyboard and dope sheets for my Computer Animation II/Animation III assignment. The original concept was 1765 frames long of animation (just underneath a minute, I believe). I had to edit for Computer Animation II (Animation III requirement = At least 3 scenes done at least; Comp Anim II = 360 frames, but entire idea must be completed) to 900. I don't know why, but this has been stress me out I know that about 300 frames are simple things that can easily be done, but still, I am beginning to doubt whether or not I can get it done. Granted because I am doing the same God damned assignment for 2 classes, I still am stressed out about it. Why? I know I can get it done. I can do a fucking 300 frame test animation done in 4 hours (modeling and animation combined). I got all the characters modeled out and nearly all the objects. My second animation assignment for Computer animation II was 285 frames (just under 10 sec) and I got it done in a total of 5 hours (texturing and all, add an hour for rendering). I got three class weeks (five if you include the holiday vacation, so is plenty of time to be in the computer animation rooms), so I know getting it done is not problem at all. Not a single problem, but I still have this negative feeling. I hate the negitive side to me. It really holds me back.

Wow, I can't believe. I actually did a serious journal entry. Last time I did this was in July.