MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!
I'm going to liverpool for the girls only meet! beep beep toot toot!
One problem its cosplay theme dress up on the Saturday and I don't really know much about anime/manga
I mean yeah I was obsessed with Fruits and harajuko stuff as a teenager, but its not really me anymore, now I'm more into 80's trailer trash and hip hop bling, what to wear what to wear
In reference to my previous blog I now only have to flyer one night a week, ZONINO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Apparently I'm one of the most reliable members of staff they've ever had
Kudo's to me!!!
EXCLAIMER...SELF PITYING BITCHY RANT TO FOLLOW (I despise subjecting innocent people to my rants but its all I can think about right now, I am not looking for sympathy, advice, your own rants and empathy would be appreciated however)
But to be quite honest nothing can bring me out of my shitty assed mood right now, I feel crap about myself, my self esteem and self confidence is running on empty.
I realised the other day I haven't had sex since March, ughhhhhhh. I'm dying a little inside every day people.
Yes I know that one's self worth shouldn't be wrapped up in your relationship (or non relationship) with your preferred sex....
But, when you've spent seven months of always trying to look your best, trying to be charming and witty ....
You end up feeling utterly shit about yourself, when all you hear is oh I like your freind, whats your freinds name she's hot blah blah blah
Its turning me into a grumpy, bitter pain in the arse
Oh and my flatmates are suffering too...apparently lack of sex turns me into an obsessive compulsive anal retentive nazi cunt
Everybody I know male and female seem to jump from one relationship to another, and I can't so much as get a guy to say hi to me when standing next to me at the bar, THE INCREDIBLE INVISIBLE RUDII!!!!!!!!!!!
According to all of my male freinds I seemed incredibly intimidating when they first met me, I have told this to female freinds and they scoffed(pissed themselves laughing actually) the phrase "drunk puppy dog" was used on several occasions.
An ex went as far as to say I might as well have had FUCK OFF tattooed on my forehead when he met me (I wish I had
)
Any ideas how someone can appear less intimidaitng? hhhhrrrrrrm
Shall I just start wearing a t shirt that says hug me or something?
Another major gripe is that I know all these guys who claim they want to go out with confident intelligent woman, who speak their mind and are funny and independent. Yet somehow they keep going after dulll as fuck girls who have no ambitions, opinions or ANY FUCKING SENSE OF INDIVIDUALITY.
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAWRRRRRRRRR
sorry people, its just am I gonna have to start buying all my clothes from Topshop, reading NME and stand around looking bored and pouty for anyone to find me attractive
I AM FED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rant over, sorry if I shat on your parade people.
Confusion is sex on Friday yiPEE!!!!!!!!!!!! I can get glammed up and dance all night and be ignored by people, kidding its gonna be ace
here's a wee pic from last CiS (there were pole dancers, it were ace)
ok maybe I do look a bit freakin scary in this photo
aaaaaaaaaaaaaah FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKK IT! 
oh yeah I 'd been dancing for about 4 hours solid at this point, ride the red bull baby oh yeah!!!
I'm going to liverpool for the girls only meet! beep beep toot toot!
One problem its cosplay theme dress up on the Saturday and I don't really know much about anime/manga
I mean yeah I was obsessed with Fruits and harajuko stuff as a teenager, but its not really me anymore, now I'm more into 80's trailer trash and hip hop bling, what to wear what to wear
In reference to my previous blog I now only have to flyer one night a week, ZONINO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Apparently I'm one of the most reliable members of staff they've ever had
Kudo's to me!!!
EXCLAIMER...SELF PITYING BITCHY RANT TO FOLLOW (I despise subjecting innocent people to my rants but its all I can think about right now, I am not looking for sympathy, advice, your own rants and empathy would be appreciated however)
But to be quite honest nothing can bring me out of my shitty assed mood right now, I feel crap about myself, my self esteem and self confidence is running on empty.
I realised the other day I haven't had sex since March, ughhhhhhh. I'm dying a little inside every day people.
Yes I know that one's self worth shouldn't be wrapped up in your relationship (or non relationship) with your preferred sex....
But, when you've spent seven months of always trying to look your best, trying to be charming and witty ....
You end up feeling utterly shit about yourself, when all you hear is oh I like your freind, whats your freinds name she's hot blah blah blah
Its turning me into a grumpy, bitter pain in the arse
Oh and my flatmates are suffering too...apparently lack of sex turns me into an obsessive compulsive anal retentive nazi cunt
Everybody I know male and female seem to jump from one relationship to another, and I can't so much as get a guy to say hi to me when standing next to me at the bar, THE INCREDIBLE INVISIBLE RUDII!!!!!!!!!!!
According to all of my male freinds I seemed incredibly intimidating when they first met me, I have told this to female freinds and they scoffed(pissed themselves laughing actually) the phrase "drunk puppy dog" was used on several occasions.
An ex went as far as to say I might as well have had FUCK OFF tattooed on my forehead when he met me (I wish I had
)
Any ideas how someone can appear less intimidaitng? hhhhrrrrrrm
Shall I just start wearing a t shirt that says hug me or something?
Another major gripe is that I know all these guys who claim they want to go out with confident intelligent woman, who speak their mind and are funny and independent. Yet somehow they keep going after dulll as fuck girls who have no ambitions, opinions or ANY FUCKING SENSE OF INDIVIDUALITY.
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAWRRRRRRRRR
sorry people, its just am I gonna have to start buying all my clothes from Topshop, reading NME and stand around looking bored and pouty for anyone to find me attractive
I AM FED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rant over, sorry if I shat on your parade people.
Confusion is sex on Friday yiPEE!!!!!!!!!!!! I can get glammed up and dance all night and be ignored by people, kidding its gonna be ace
here's a wee pic from last CiS (there were pole dancers, it were ace)
ok maybe I do look a bit freakin scary in this photo
aaaaaaaaaaaaaah FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKK IT!
oh yeah I 'd been dancing for about 4 hours solid at this point, ride the red bull baby oh yeah!!!
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i do have a costume idea, but i don't watch anime and all that shit so it's not really in with the theme either...
oh well, we'll have to look silly
x
Confident, intelligent woman actually intimidate a lot of guys so they normally avoid them and go for the dull as fuck girls cause they seem easier
Chin up, keep being you and it'll happen