rudeybluemoon

FuCK the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..... right now life is crumbling, my doctor says i might have a tumor or "growth" that is close to my cerenbelum. which would translate to either me being cippled for life or just midly ..or it could be absoulutly nothing...i find out on thursday after he gets my MRI's in...mean while my ex girlfriend who has ben in town for 3 weeks deicded to stay even longer and on top of that told me that she is late on her period....so basically if i don't have a tumor then i get to raise a child that i am not able to raise right now and she is in no state to even mentally tackles the responsibilities of growing up a kid....on to the next drastic emotional grinding in my life.. i have been courting a girl from down south for about 2 weeks now, she lives almost 2 hours away things have been going really well and she seemed to dig me alot...until last night.. now i have always dated BI girls and honestly i don't get jelous or wierded out when i see the girl i am with make out with another girl but last night me and this girl were over at one of my best friends house who is very attactive but to me she is like a sister. needless to explain they started getting hot and heavy while i stood by...it would of been a fantastic event however i felt ackward watching my non-blood related sister make out with the girl i have the glimar in my eye for....they ended up makeing to much noise and the cops came out...i offcourse got to do the talking and that quickly ended there party we all went inside and took a warm bath... clothed, and they started at it again... once i realized i would simply not be able to handle watching my friend make out with her i got up and went to bed, later that night the girl i have interest for crawled into bed with me naked. we made out alittle bit but we were both too tired to go any further.....so to anyone out there who reads this WTF does this mean?!? is she into me / my friend/ or both of us? ....anyhow tumor/children/crazy girl is pretty much rulling my life i am off to get drunk and forget my days...