Waiting down in the Hospital Cafeteria for them to page me when my Moms done with her procedure. She's getting something put under her skin to make it easy when they connect the tubes for her Chemo. Something that she now needs to do for the rest of her life. Maybe it will prolong her life. Don't know, for the pain Chemo causes it sure better. I think we all know our parents won't be around forever and I am slowly coming to grips with that. But there is no way hell to prepare yourself for what is to come. It is very much outside my experiences.
I am not a person that cries or gets emotional. When I do, I let myself . The first time I cried in over 15yrs was 10yra ago, right after my dad had a heart attack and 3 of his 4 arteries were blocked. He was on a gurney going into open heart surgery. So I just all these just streaming down my face. And then I hear my cousin behind me laughing saying 'Why are you crying? Your dads going to be fine.' I just turned on him and started yelling 'Fuck you! Don't you fuckin tell me what I should be feeling! If I want to cry I'm gonna fuckin cry! So fuck you And mind your own goddamn business!' I've never been one to suppress anyones emotional outburst. If you gotta get some shit out then do it. Justified or not is not important to me. Just get it all out. Holding any of those things in is so unhealthy.
So back to this burger. It says top sirloin.I was afraid to ask top sirloin of what. The fries were actually good. I happen to like twice fried fries or as some people call them chips. I do want to see what's going on with people today but I'll have to wait till later.
