rude_ruca

"Just a spoonful of sugar helps he medicine go down, in the most delightful wayyyy!"

So, my ear feels like a bomb has exploded in it- AGAIN! I dunno what the problem with my body is, but I am about to throw down, for real! April showers don't bring May flowers into my life. No, actually they harvest mold spores which cause some kind of freak reaction with my body and I get random ear infections springing up! Oh! How exciting to anticipate the doctor bills and ear drop costs every May through July! You guys just have NO idea how fulfilling it is to know that my body will consistently go hay wire this time of year, every year!

Anyway, on a more positive note, I got offered an editorial position for the magazine, Urbancode that I am writing for. I mean, way cool, I know. Who woulda thunk it? ME running shit? Heh, well. I mean, sure, I can make a turd shine, but in all honesty, I am really not ready to take on that kind of task. I made it clear to my editor that this next year is really going to be about my development as a writer. I appreciated the offer, immensely, but in the true light of things I really just want to get my shit together. I want to be confident with my own writing style and approach.

I did however send an email to the newly appointed music editor and told him that while I was really enthused about his taking the helm, I also didn't want the other music writer and myself (who have, besides the new music editor, been the sole contributors thus far) to be tossed by the wayside should new writers be brought on. I mean, he's like proposing this "schedule" idea where not everyone will make it into every issue, but maybe every other, or every couple of issues. Oh, and we'd now be reviewing shit that HE tosses our way. (Rolls Eyes) Ok, honestly, that's not going to fly with me for two reasons. The first being that the way that our editor has been running it so far is that we all kind of get our ideas together at the conclusion of each deadline for the next issue. We email him with what we want to write and he's Ok'd EVERYTHING. He's all about the content but also being loose in letting us be free with our writing. But now, this kid wants to put limitations on shit. He says he wants like 15-20 pages, but really only about the bones he throws us. Secondly, I took on the task and made a commitment to the editor to contribute because I have a lot of resources and knowledge to offer. I mean, this may sound selfish, but I want to have at least a 350 word review in each issue. I think it's only fair seeing as how I was one of the first to be offered the position. I mean, ok, I KNOW that I said NO. I understand that, and perhaps that's just how missed opportunities pan out. However, I don't think I am asking too much. I really don't. Oh, and also, he states that he wants us to steer clear of the mainstream. I kinda felt like that was a direct cut at me because I did a review of the new Kings of Leon and Black Rebel Motorcycle Club albums for the next issue (sorry to let the cat outta the bag, but I won't tell you about the other two articles I did, ok?).

Ahhh, I dunno, maybe I am being a little apprehensive. Maybe too much doom and gloom to fast. I just want to protect the status that I've worked fairly hard to accomplish and plan on continuing to maintain. Am I being a jerk? Seriously, I don't want to be surrounded by 'yes' people..