So, there's this guy....
...Yeah, same song and dance as usual, huh? Well, maybe not...I know that I want to take more time for myself, but someone from a while back, someone dynamic, who is permanently engrained in my skull, has resurfaced. This guy has quite the personality. He is insane, but at the same time helps me hold it together. While not clinically ill, he does the most outrageous stuff, and totally makes me giggle. I am so afraid of being with him, but in the same right, feel as if I've known him for ions! Its so strange. When I first met him, we talked...for a LONG time....god! I don't want to be one of those chicks who hides inside the safety bars of a relationship. However, in the same breath, I AM the eternal hopeless romantic, and I dont want to waste one moment! I want to steal every kiss that I can from his oh so sweet, soft, rosey lips, and stare for a while into those amazingly georgeous stoney eyes....I want to feel the way I did that time when he softly ran his finger tips over the small of my back, and whispered in my ear to just relax. I want him becasue he has no alterior motives, or so I think thus far. I want him because we are insanely passionate about anything we touch, and will listen to each other's dreams/fears/loves/hates, etc. He's cute. In the all american, loves his mother and her apple pie kinda way....
...Ugh! What to do...I want this so bad I can taste it, but I am so scared to be dissapointed again...I will move slow...I will let HIM take the initiative....let him hold doors, and embrace ME first....in time, I will only hope that he will prove to me that he can hold me....
...Yeah, same song and dance as usual, huh? Well, maybe not...I know that I want to take more time for myself, but someone from a while back, someone dynamic, who is permanently engrained in my skull, has resurfaced. This guy has quite the personality. He is insane, but at the same time helps me hold it together. While not clinically ill, he does the most outrageous stuff, and totally makes me giggle. I am so afraid of being with him, but in the same right, feel as if I've known him for ions! Its so strange. When I first met him, we talked...for a LONG time....god! I don't want to be one of those chicks who hides inside the safety bars of a relationship. However, in the same breath, I AM the eternal hopeless romantic, and I dont want to waste one moment! I want to steal every kiss that I can from his oh so sweet, soft, rosey lips, and stare for a while into those amazingly georgeous stoney eyes....I want to feel the way I did that time when he softly ran his finger tips over the small of my back, and whispered in my ear to just relax. I want him becasue he has no alterior motives, or so I think thus far. I want him because we are insanely passionate about anything we touch, and will listen to each other's dreams/fears/loves/hates, etc. He's cute. In the all american, loves his mother and her apple pie kinda way....
...Ugh! What to do...I want this so bad I can taste it, but I am so scared to be dissapointed again...I will move slow...I will let HIM take the initiative....let him hold doors, and embrace ME first....in time, I will only hope that he will prove to me that he can hold me....