Taking a well needed break from the papers I am buried under....
...It's my fault that it got this bad though. I mean, damn, I totally haulted the momentum that I'd picked up at the begining of the school year via an injection of boyness. I mean, don't get me wrong, it's not that I didn't learn anything from that relationship, it's just that, I needed to realize what my goals where, what was going to get me where. If anything, now that it is at the close of the Semester, I am learning, from my english class, that procrastination gets you NO WHERE! And in my music class, well, that's another story. It's actually making me look forward to taking Fundementals of music next semester, along with first year violin and probably an art class. I am finally starting to realize what I want to do as far as a major is concerned (Major in English, Minor in Music) and opening my eyes to so many musical horizons. And, as much as I have bitched about this fuggin' research paper for my english class, it's actually about proving Music Therapy's effectiveness. Man, what an enlightening study that has been! I can say, learning about music's roots and history, and the philosophies associated with music has truly been an inspiration!
Ok, now that you are all bored to tears!
I can't say much has been happening on the exciting tip, but for some reason, with the break on the horizon, I feel as though something is bubbling under the surface, as if something amazing is about to knock me on my feet. And no, I am not trying to tease any of you by withholding info, 'cause I seriously DONT know what I am in for, it just feels like something is waiting...
In other news, I have decided that yes, I do like the band Clutch. This revelation of sorts did not hit until about two nights ago, but when it did, I felt as though I was having an epiphany. I mean, I have been seriously searching for some GOOD rock music. I am getting tired of our air waves being dominated by the trying-to-hards and the generic-over produced-bullshitters. I am so sick of the same guitar riffs and pinch harmonics and the shouting! So, when listening to this band, one can imagine my enjoyment in their hard, pircing, bassey guitars/strings section accompanied by some soulfulness and decent singing. Why did I hold out for so long? Oh, also, for those of you metal Heads who wished for something that fell in the arena of old school metal, Check out Viking Skull. Their stuff is pretty rad, too. Oh, and lastly, the band Bend Over seems pretty hardcore to me, I can only imagine the shows they put on....
As far as Austin is concerned, it can wait. I realized that a lot of my 'homies' are here in frederick, and with the parental units moving to NC next June, I am not sure I want to hurl myself into a completely unfamiliar environment. I mean, sure, doing so may force me to find happiness in stange place, but I just feel that right now, with the intensity with school, and everything else, that I need to stay put. I want to get a little more stable (and out on my OWN finally) before making any hasty desicions like that. Hopefully I can find some epace in that, or maybe a good night's sleep.
So, the long and short of this LONG update is that while the last three weeks have been majorly emotinally intense, work wise as well, I am finding a certain place in all of the chaos. I am realizing that I can do this on my own, that i am ready to, and that I just need to focus. I mean, yeah, going out for a drink every couple of wekends, or every now and then is good for the soul, but to truly achieve satisfaction with my work, I need to be toes to the nose 95% of the time! 
Have a great week, my lovelies!
...It's my fault that it got this bad though. I mean, damn, I totally haulted the momentum that I'd picked up at the begining of the school year via an injection of boyness. I mean, don't get me wrong, it's not that I didn't learn anything from that relationship, it's just that, I needed to realize what my goals where, what was going to get me where. If anything, now that it is at the close of the Semester, I am learning, from my english class, that procrastination gets you NO WHERE! And in my music class, well, that's another story. It's actually making me look forward to taking Fundementals of music next semester, along with first year violin and probably an art class. I am finally starting to realize what I want to do as far as a major is concerned (Major in English, Minor in Music) and opening my eyes to so many musical horizons. And, as much as I have bitched about this fuggin' research paper for my english class, it's actually about proving Music Therapy's effectiveness. Man, what an enlightening study that has been! I can say, learning about music's roots and history, and the philosophies associated with music has truly been an inspiration!
Ok, now that you are all bored to tears!
I can't say much has been happening on the exciting tip, but for some reason, with the break on the horizon, I feel as though something is bubbling under the surface, as if something amazing is about to knock me on my feet. And no, I am not trying to tease any of you by withholding info, 'cause I seriously DONT know what I am in for, it just feels like something is waiting...
In other news, I have decided that yes, I do like the band Clutch. This revelation of sorts did not hit until about two nights ago, but when it did, I felt as though I was having an epiphany. I mean, I have been seriously searching for some GOOD rock music. I am getting tired of our air waves being dominated by the trying-to-hards and the generic-over produced-bullshitters. I am so sick of the same guitar riffs and pinch harmonics and the shouting! So, when listening to this band, one can imagine my enjoyment in their hard, pircing, bassey guitars/strings section accompanied by some soulfulness and decent singing. Why did I hold out for so long? Oh, also, for those of you metal Heads who wished for something that fell in the arena of old school metal, Check out Viking Skull. Their stuff is pretty rad, too. Oh, and lastly, the band Bend Over seems pretty hardcore to me, I can only imagine the shows they put on....
As far as Austin is concerned, it can wait. I realized that a lot of my 'homies' are here in frederick, and with the parental units moving to NC next June, I am not sure I want to hurl myself into a completely unfamiliar environment. I mean, sure, doing so may force me to find happiness in stange place, but I just feel that right now, with the intensity with school, and everything else, that I need to stay put. I want to get a little more stable (and out on my OWN finally) before making any hasty desicions like that. Hopefully I can find some epace in that, or maybe a good night's sleep.
So, the long and short of this LONG update is that while the last three weeks have been majorly emotinally intense, work wise as well, I am finding a certain place in all of the chaos. I am realizing that I can do this on my own, that i am ready to, and that I just need to focus. I mean, yeah, going out for a drink every couple of wekends, or every now and then is good for the soul, but to truly achieve satisfaction with my work, I need to be toes to the nose 95% of the time!
Have a great week, my lovelies!
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