Well the day started off with much goodness and ended chain smoking and drinking a bottle of wine on my own. Which is pretty dire but then again I haven't done that for ages and it kind of makes me chuckle. Silly.
A certain someone called me. I feel embarrassed. I showed him my vulnerable side.
He says I have a problem with self-esteem because whenever anyone likes me I automatically say 'they don't know me'.
But its true. How can someone say they like you when they don't know you? It might be lust, it might be a good first impression, but its nothing real. I don't know.
Part of me says he doesn't really like me. He has his own self-esteem problems and therefore just wants someone to like him, to make him feel better about himself. Hence when we talk, most of the time he talks about himself and doesn't ask me anything about myself or my life.
Whatever dude.
So, yeah... I need some distractions.
Write and tell me something about yourself.
1)When was the last time you cried?
2) What possessions that you own have the most sentimental value?
3) What place in the world do you feel most peaceful in?
4) What's the most romantic things you hvae done for someone or that someone has done for you?
A certain someone called me. I feel embarrassed. I showed him my vulnerable side.
He says I have a problem with self-esteem because whenever anyone likes me I automatically say 'they don't know me'.
But its true. How can someone say they like you when they don't know you? It might be lust, it might be a good first impression, but its nothing real. I don't know.
Part of me says he doesn't really like me. He has his own self-esteem problems and therefore just wants someone to like him, to make him feel better about himself. Hence when we talk, most of the time he talks about himself and doesn't ask me anything about myself or my life.
Whatever dude.
So, yeah... I need some distractions.
Write and tell me something about yourself.
1)When was the last time you cried?
2) What possessions that you own have the most sentimental value?
3) What place in the world do you feel most peaceful in?
4) What's the most romantic things you hvae done for someone or that someone has done for you?
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I am jobhunting and it's not helping the PMT. I DON'T WANT ANY OF THESE JOBS. But I must, or I will bury myself in debt, and anyway it's no fun being skint all the time.
Someday we shall meet again! If you're up my way we could meet for tea in town, or you could come for a swim in the ladies pond if the sun ever pops it's face through the clouds.
But I disagree about `you don`t know me` and therefore your interest isn`t `real`. You underestimate the power off `chemistry` and recognising something in someone.
I`m not sure about this guy because he goes on about himself too much but you have to give yourself a chance.
Anyway that`s my 2 pence worth.
1)When was the last time you cried?
I cry all the time. I am proud to be in touch with my emotions and believe myself to be strong by letting them out and admitting i have them. Last time? last night during A series of unfortunate events movie.
2) What possessions that you own have the most sentimental value?
Old gifts from people, a leather pouch, photos, a few other bits. I could live without them though.
3) What place in the world do you feel most peaceful in?
that`s a good question. Cyprus is pretty peaceful, so is Cornwall (on the moores with noone around. There was a stretch of road in London I liked because you could shout and noone could here you. I feel good by mountains or water.
4) What's the most romantic things you hvae done for someone or that someone has done for you?
I once set up a poem treasure hunt for an ex. I was living with a Landlady and my girl used to let herself in and just come up to my room. One day my door was locked and a poem was on the door, directing her to the toilet cabinet, another note and a key, then in the bedroom low music playing, glass of wine and a rose and another note sending her downstairs where she finds another note, a chocolate bar (her favorite). While she was downstairs I made my way from my hiding place back to my bedroom and after a few more notes and small gifts sent her back to the bedroomwhere I was waiting with a necklace.
Turned out she had never finished with her ex boyfriend and had been seeing us both for 6 months.
For my current love, on our first date (we had known each other for a few months first) I visited the restaurant in the day and picked our table, flowers, a walk up the thames, and a cd. I made it very obvious I was interested. All went without a hitch, and here we are 5 years later.
Keep well