So yes... the fetish fair.
I feel really depressed about it. I did really badly. And its so frustrating because when I stand in front of my things, I feel like a little kiddie in a sweetie shop. I feel so proud, and I love my things so much... a fact that I'm proud of in itself because I'm extremely self-critical. so the fact that I love my things so much and not very many other people do... or rather I havnt found the right place with the right clientel, is really difficult and frustrating.
Basically it was full of ugly, gross, fat, old, flabby, nasty, pervy BDSM freaks. Who were not into pretty, lovely things like the things I make.
I saw soooo many gross things. And I am a very open-minded person, I don't like to judge, bla bla bla... and i feel bad dissing these people but I was PISSED OFF. There were women, fat ugly women being led around in gross leather harnesses, pussy lips hanging out, with those pony bit things in their mouths, unable to speak... being totally humiliated and getting off on it. I can't be assed to go into more detail.
I don't know.... I've been to my fair share of fetish clubs and seen some crazy shit but it just really depressed me on Sunday.
Where is my friggin' scene? I like to be in places where I can sexually express myself, I like to dress up a little crazy, I am all about sexual adventures,.... but its a positive and uplifting thing, and my accessories are about beauty and aesthetics. It seems like everything else to do with the sex and fetish scene is about sexual power games and BDSM. Its not mentally healthy. And lots of seediness. And being there makes me feel snooty, and I don't like feeling that way. I like to see the best in people and not look down on people.
At this one point, this 'man',although I would say that animals have more dignity than him, came up to me and started licking the sole of my foot.
Ugh.
Can you imagine? Not only is that disgusting... but you can't just go up to someone and do that without asking for permission. He started smelling my shoe and licking it all over!
And I got put on the guest list for this club night called Pedestal which describes itself as 'the ultimate playground for the dominant woman and those who worship her' and is presumably full of disgusting men doing things
like this to themselves. I think going there would put me off men for life. Ugh.
I am so grossed out right now. Where is my scene? Why is the sex scene so seedy? Where are all those people who wantgorgeous pretty things?
Why is it that it is so possible to be into sex and sexual exploration and it be a purely positive and spiritual thing yet anything officially to do with sex whether it be a sex club or sex shop or film or whatever... its all seedy and gross and fucked up. Unless you go to some tantric sex class and its all musli eating tree huggin' hippies. Nothing agaisnt those, but why is there no inbetween? Where do i fit in?
What kind of freaks are we? Why do we bring up our children with such double standards, Why is it all such a fucking taboo?!?!?
I'm gonna have to start my own fucking movement.
I feel really depressed about it. I did really badly. And its so frustrating because when I stand in front of my things, I feel like a little kiddie in a sweetie shop. I feel so proud, and I love my things so much... a fact that I'm proud of in itself because I'm extremely self-critical. so the fact that I love my things so much and not very many other people do... or rather I havnt found the right place with the right clientel, is really difficult and frustrating.
Basically it was full of ugly, gross, fat, old, flabby, nasty, pervy BDSM freaks. Who were not into pretty, lovely things like the things I make.
I saw soooo many gross things. And I am a very open-minded person, I don't like to judge, bla bla bla... and i feel bad dissing these people but I was PISSED OFF. There were women, fat ugly women being led around in gross leather harnesses, pussy lips hanging out, with those pony bit things in their mouths, unable to speak... being totally humiliated and getting off on it. I can't be assed to go into more detail.
I don't know.... I've been to my fair share of fetish clubs and seen some crazy shit but it just really depressed me on Sunday.
Where is my friggin' scene? I like to be in places where I can sexually express myself, I like to dress up a little crazy, I am all about sexual adventures,.... but its a positive and uplifting thing, and my accessories are about beauty and aesthetics. It seems like everything else to do with the sex and fetish scene is about sexual power games and BDSM. Its not mentally healthy. And lots of seediness. And being there makes me feel snooty, and I don't like feeling that way. I like to see the best in people and not look down on people.
At this one point, this 'man',although I would say that animals have more dignity than him, came up to me and started licking the sole of my foot.
Ugh.
Can you imagine? Not only is that disgusting... but you can't just go up to someone and do that without asking for permission. He started smelling my shoe and licking it all over!
And I got put on the guest list for this club night called Pedestal which describes itself as 'the ultimate playground for the dominant woman and those who worship her' and is presumably full of disgusting men doing things
like this to themselves. I think going there would put me off men for life. Ugh.
I am so grossed out right now. Where is my scene? Why is the sex scene so seedy? Where are all those people who wantgorgeous pretty things?
Why is it that it is so possible to be into sex and sexual exploration and it be a purely positive and spiritual thing yet anything officially to do with sex whether it be a sex club or sex shop or film or whatever... its all seedy and gross and fucked up. Unless you go to some tantric sex class and its all musli eating tree huggin' hippies. Nothing agaisnt those, but why is there no inbetween? Where do i fit in?
What kind of freaks are we? Why do we bring up our children with such double standards, Why is it all such a fucking taboo?!?!?
I'm gonna have to start my own fucking movement.
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Let me know as soon as your website is up and running, I reckon I could spread the word a bit at least, there's a club in Bristol called Sapnk who are closely affiliated with another members only bar called Il Bordello....(is on a boat, how sweet). They run burlesque nights there and are planning to expand that side of the operation as so far it has been mostly fetish nights, I've never been to them but I have been to a couple of the Burlesque nights. Anyway when I was looking for a venue for the band video I got in touch with them, they're really helpful and were going to spread the word via their members list, they might do the same for you and it would be direct to the market you will appeal to. Am sure there's lots of club nights that would do the same, put an ad or recommendation on their mailing list.
Mmmm what else...oh there's a new online fetish magazine too that I've heard about but not looked at yet, they may be able to help too? I'll see if I can find the address again.
What do I do? believe it or not I'm training to be a social worker.....I'm not intending to be a field worker but more use it to do something a bit different, I haven't decided yet. I may take a break anyway.....am still not sure whether it's what I want to do...I'm going to do some couples counselling next year and see how that goes...might possibly progress and do a degree in psychosexual therapy....who knows, the possibilities are endless, this is just a handy qualification to have under my belt.......but I'm getting kinda sick of moody teenagers!
I believe that there has to be class when your being sexy, you jus don't go running around in front of people if you know you look crap, ugly or like an utter slut, it's gotta be shopisticated hun! I'll join you in your new movement hunney!!! Lets go!!!