rubygardenia

hm.

i didn't used to be so much of a deleter. truthfully, i can't remember, but i don't think i erased my creative self the way i do now.

i go on delete binges. it sounds trivial, maybe. i delete things i write, things of promising but maybe dubious value. writing that exposes my talent vulnerabilities. i also delete out of rebellion. a perverse, back-handed resistance...
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i like mayer hawthorne, saffron-infused gin and sundresses. i bought an especially cute one in savannah for 20$ along with a slightly ill-fitting pair of vintage sandals. there was a beautiful red-headed girl in a caribbean blue sundress that helped me. her skin was as translucent as milk glass and her waist impossibly narrow. i imagined her ribcage and how her lungs must feel in...
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i thought i would be inspired to keep a blog like i used to, but no.

i'm grateful not to be cultivating my own narrative so much anymore.

it's kind of tragic to me that rich people are the only ones that leave paper trails.
start writing shit down, y'all. someday, someone you don't know will be trying to know you.

i've been accused of being 'class conscious', but really: rich people fucking love themselves. the rest of us don't have enough information. leave something behind. something good and interesting, donate to history...
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happy tuesday. shopping and lunch with my favorite girl.

holy shit i need valentine's day ideas. crap.

i'm not a good present buyer.

guess i'll start posting blogs again.

i have a few projects brewing:
- volunteering at Grady hospital. i still have to go and get my MMR titers, i hate having blood work done. oy.
-I'm on the board of my Civic Association. I know that sounds terribly yuppie but I really love my neighborhood and learning about its history and contributing to it which also...
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