I know it has been awhile since Ive updated. Well Ive been back in New Mexico for some time now. Had a lot of fun on my vacation though, the Shakespearean festival in Ashland Or. was just wonderful, plus on the way back to Seattle I got to stop in Portland and go to the best new and used book store ever. Yeah bought a few too many books (well if there is such a thing). Now on to the really big news, for the longest time Ive had a fear of driving, hell only earlier this year did I even get a drivers license and I didnt even use it, only got it because of pressure from family. These last two weeks I have put over 100 miles on my car (granted its just around this town and Alamogordo)the first twenty was torture, but now Im feeling pretty good. Its a freedom that Ive missed out on and now it seems like Im trying to make up for the time and actually planning on driving back to San Diego for Xmas, and were I wouldve looked upon that with dread Im now actually thinking I can do it.
Okay since Ive moved to Tularosa (a year ago) Ive been talking with a local college guy, was never really anything serious (still isnt) weve started seeing each other (can you say booty call) and the funny thing is, Ive grown into my own. All of my hang ups when it comes to my body and or sex have seemed to go out the window. Its quite odd, Ive learned how to laugh during sex, and I give my partner credit because he seems to have reached that level of comfort with his own self which just makes it easier for me too. Ive been able to walk around naked without feeling uber self-conscious about it, able to have the lights on, and able to voice what I like/want, and I guess the really big thing Ive actually been able to let go and have an orgasm which is a first for me to have one with someone. Unfortunately if he wants more then what it is its not going to end well. For now I just want the fun to last for a while, I dont want a relationship (Ive made that clear) or a confidant, I just kind of need the physical, the touch, and the play to feel human for a bit.
Okay since Ive moved to Tularosa (a year ago) Ive been talking with a local college guy, was never really anything serious (still isnt) weve started seeing each other (can you say booty call) and the funny thing is, Ive grown into my own. All of my hang ups when it comes to my body and or sex have seemed to go out the window. Its quite odd, Ive learned how to laugh during sex, and I give my partner credit because he seems to have reached that level of comfort with his own self which just makes it easier for me too. Ive been able to walk around naked without feeling uber self-conscious about it, able to have the lights on, and able to voice what I like/want, and I guess the really big thing Ive actually been able to let go and have an orgasm which is a first for me to have one with someone. Unfortunately if he wants more then what it is its not going to end well. For now I just want the fun to last for a while, I dont want a relationship (Ive made that clear) or a confidant, I just kind of need the physical, the touch, and the play to feel human for a bit.
buffalobill45:
I couldn't live without the independence of driving......glad you got over your fear. Peace Bill