I've been really cranky lately. Really, ever since I got back from Seattle. I'm not sure what's come over me, but I'm pissy, moody, suspicious, and it's no fun. I think maybe it's a combination of things: Firstly, my hormones are all outta whack. That *always* makes things bad. And I think leaving Seattle and my boy, both which I fell completely in love with, is also making it hard for me. Also I'm lonely here in New Jersey. Really, really lonely. No one in the city or surrounding area seems to want to hang out with me. And there's obviously not going to be a going away party. So I sit here. In the house, alone, all day. God it takes it's toll on someone. Ugh. And I can't work until tomorrow, and then not again until the weekend. I desperately need the money, and the excuse to leave the house for 8 - 10 hours. Plus there are some other things going on... And it all adds up to me acting like a bitch to everyone.
It's putting a strain on all of my relationships. It's putting a strain on my love with Tony (I won't go into detail), it's putting a strain on my friendships, it's even making it hard for me to talk to my mom.
Jesus, ten more days until I leave for Seattle. There I will have a wonderful city waiting for me, a boy who I hope will still want me after this week, and at least a friend or two... Plus a job, and several hobbies already lined up.
Please let these ten days fly.
It's putting a strain on all of my relationships. It's putting a strain on my love with Tony (I won't go into detail), it's putting a strain on my friendships, it's even making it hard for me to talk to my mom.
Jesus, ten more days until I leave for Seattle. There I will have a wonderful city waiting for me, a boy who I hope will still want me after this week, and at least a friend or two... Plus a job, and several hobbies already lined up.
Please let these ten days fly.
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As for coming to the club, we intend to stay from 10pm until you finish and then take you into the city with us, silly. I could have sworn that this was meant to be your going away party plus it benefitted you to make loot as well. I mean really how many people would be able to come say good bye on a tuesday night when you have off? I'd venture to say that you'ld be more disappointed with a going away party where three people showed up.
I've got a
secret.
The going away party is Saturday.
Don't tell Roxy , ok?
There's gonna be people 'an stuff... coming from out of state, even.... 'cause we wanna wish you a good trip and a happy future out there in that strange new world that is the west coast.
[Edited on Feb 13, 2003]