I am sick to fucking death of getting shit from every side!!! 
WHAT THE FUCK!!!! I can't please ANYONE these days, and dammit, I'm also trying and failing miserably at trying to please myself!!!!
The possible love of my life is mad at me b/c I crashed on the boy-toy-of-doom's couch Saturday night. My cell phone battery died and he tried to call a few times... either way he thinks I lied about the battery because I was "having a good time and didn't want to be bothered" WTF!!!!! If i was going to lie at all don't you think I'd lie about being on the boy-toy-of-doom's couch!!!!! Either way I'm having serious bad feelings about the possible love of my life, which kills me. I REALLY like him, but he doesn't ever reciprocate, because he's "not ready to put himself out there". WTF!!?!?!?!? as if I or anyone is ever ready to put themselves out there! I need a little positive feedback, or this shit has to end. I am not willing to stress about whether someone will break my heart or not on a daily basis. It kills me to say that, really...it would kill me to break it off, but I just don't know what to think.
I AM SICK AS FUCK OF EVERYONE ONLY CONTACTING ME OUT OF CONVENIENCE!!!!! Fuck you! I DO HAVE FEELINGS TOO ASSHOLES!!!!
The boy-toy-of-doom only calls when he needs a ride somewhere, or needs something, or is alone and bored. I AM NOT A FUCKING DOORMAT!!!!! We are supposed to be FRIENDS!!! Friends is a 2 way street, not a convenience thing, and I'm feeeling a LOT used here!
That's it, I am officially, 100% shutting my feelings off for a while...maybe that will make the acid feeling in my stomach go away for a while....
That and a few hundred dollars so my car doesn't get repoed...
Have a good day SG land
WHAT THE FUCK!!!! I can't please ANYONE these days, and dammit, I'm also trying and failing miserably at trying to please myself!!!!
The possible love of my life is mad at me b/c I crashed on the boy-toy-of-doom's couch Saturday night. My cell phone battery died and he tried to call a few times... either way he thinks I lied about the battery because I was "having a good time and didn't want to be bothered" WTF!!!!! If i was going to lie at all don't you think I'd lie about being on the boy-toy-of-doom's couch!!!!! Either way I'm having serious bad feelings about the possible love of my life, which kills me. I REALLY like him, but he doesn't ever reciprocate, because he's "not ready to put himself out there". WTF!!?!?!?!? as if I or anyone is ever ready to put themselves out there! I need a little positive feedback, or this shit has to end. I am not willing to stress about whether someone will break my heart or not on a daily basis. It kills me to say that, really...it would kill me to break it off, but I just don't know what to think.
I AM SICK AS FUCK OF EVERYONE ONLY CONTACTING ME OUT OF CONVENIENCE!!!!! Fuck you! I DO HAVE FEELINGS TOO ASSHOLES!!!!
The boy-toy-of-doom only calls when he needs a ride somewhere, or needs something, or is alone and bored. I AM NOT A FUCKING DOORMAT!!!!! We are supposed to be FRIENDS!!! Friends is a 2 way street, not a convenience thing, and I'm feeeling a LOT used here!
That's it, I am officially, 100% shutting my feelings off for a while...maybe that will make the acid feeling in my stomach go away for a while....
That and a few hundred dollars so my car doesn't get repoed...
Have a good day SG land
Anyways I think I will go ahead and have me one of those good days.