roxiekill

i have been trying to update my journal here for weeks....but every time i get through with writing one, i end up hitting some button or the mouse with my some part of my hand and everything disappears....so, i am going to try to be super careful today....and update this fucking journal and get it over with. as usual, i am at work.....it is a slow day, so i should have time to get this finished without too much interruption. One of my co workers from my other job is here drinking coffee. it is so weird when you're used to seeing someone in one place all the time, and they show up in another place. you know what i mean

i got my period this weekend for the first time in three years, and i am not taking it so well. it FUCKING SUCKS!!! cramps and blood and tampons, pads, panti liners....its sooooo dirty!!! i love blood and all, but not coming out of my cunt!! i changed my birth control last month.....i really really miss my old one. my tummy hurts

now its getting a little busier in here. i want people to leave me alone!!
okay, update? we moved into the apartment, and it is fucking beautiful! just loud. the traffic noise is not so good. but thats really my only complaint. well, thats a lie, but i think i will get used to it. its new, its different. unfamiliar.

i got my car back about a week and a half ago, finally!!! but its totally fucked up. it just dies. i can be driving along and everything will be fine, then, out of no where, my rpms go down to zero, i pull over, and the fucking thing dies. the strangest thing about it is, it usually starts right back up without a problem. like nothing happened at all. i've been taking it to this great shop by my work, and so far they've been wonderful, but they just cant seem to figure out whats wrong with it. they thought it was the thermostat.....it was stuck open, so my car was only running at 170 degrees. they gave me a new thermostat, and everything was fine for a couple of days, and it happened again. so its just a big fucking mystery and i am totally bummed. i had to have it towed there last night, because it was really acting up. it would die, i'd get it started again, but it would die again within minutes. over and over. finally i gave up on it and called AAA. garrett drove me to work this morning. he hasnt had to do that since the car was first stolen. he's the best! getting up at 5 am to get me to work on time. i cant believe how lucky i am!! i just have really terrible luck, if that makes any sense.

oh, and my catalytic converter needs to be replaced. i hope that doesnt have anything to do with the way my car is acting. my advice to every one is GET LOJACK!! IF YOUR CAR GETS STOLEN, and you're fortunate enough to get it back, IT MIGHT NOT EVER BE THE SAME. maybe if you can find out where it is in a matter of minutes, you could prevent it from getting too fucked up.

we will be going out of town here in just a few more days!!! i am so excited. we're going to oakland to visit garrett's sister, brother in law and nephew. even though its not MY family or anything, i am super glad to get the hell out of here for a few days, especially with the man i adore.

anywho, all the coffee pots are getting empty and i must refill them before someone comes in here and gets pissed off at me. i'd better finish this up. i'm scared it will all go away. okay, im done.

k, bye.

p.s. how sad is it that only two of my five friends still have sg accounts? fuck!

xoxo