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I had a very shiznitty day.

Woke up with absolutely no energy whatsoever. This usually wouldn't be a problem, but today I had to go help my mom and dad finish moving out of the house. You guys, I am so fucking sad. I grew up in that house. I rode horses through that field. I raised calves in that barn. I am so sick with it all. The worst part is that they don't even care! I asked Mum today if it bothered her at all and she said, "Not at all!" like she was offended I would even think that. I will never go back inside that house. It will never be home again.

*sniff* *sniff*

I came home and cleaned a bit. After the house deal, I just felt like crawling into a hole. When RAWB came home I told him I needed comfort food, so he took me out to Italian and bought me books at borders. Thank you dearest. You don't know how much I needed a hug.

Next big bad thing: I haven't talked to Red in 2 days now. I feel like I am going out of my mind. I am almost in tears right now thinking about it...Knowing that I won't be home to chat online all weekend. But I am going to call her while I am in Bellevue. If I don't hear something from her by tomorrow I think I may go mad with wanting. Is that normal? To be so madly addicted to a person? She's my cronic...

Talk to me Red. I wish you were here. <3

XOXO
~JAx

p.s. I shall be gone from tomorrow morning till Sunday night. And the more observant of you may have noticed that, since I never update in the mornings, I shant be talking to you all till then. If I can get to a computer, I will, but I am not going to fret about it. Well....at least not too damn much. Love ya'lls and see you next year!