Ok, here we go:
Well like I said earlier, Mathis and I had a wonderful weekend together. Things felt like they used to. I havent been that happy in a long time. He told me that he wanted the same stuff I did....for us to have a life together and a family. I was estatic. I actually got my hopes up. We hadn't gotten along that well in a long time and I felt like that things might actually work this time and I was gonna try my damnedest to make sure that they did.
Welp Monday night I wrote him a message on here asking him a simple ques. It wasn't supposed to mean anything. I was just curious and it was just for conversation. I asked him what his thoughts were on marriage. Well he like totally changed. He got mean and pissy. And then that was it. He left me. Just like that. I tried to explain that the ques. really wasn't supposed to mean anything....but he told me that he had totally changed his mind and he really wasnt ready to be a family with me and our daughter. He really hurt me. I cried until like 5:30 in the morning. I dont understand it. I guess in a way its my fault, b'c after 5 years of being with mathis I know never to get my hopes up. And I did. And once again I got fucked over and hurt. So oh well I guess. His loss, right? I hate being in love.
Well like I said earlier, Mathis and I had a wonderful weekend together. Things felt like they used to. I havent been that happy in a long time. He told me that he wanted the same stuff I did....for us to have a life together and a family. I was estatic. I actually got my hopes up. We hadn't gotten along that well in a long time and I felt like that things might actually work this time and I was gonna try my damnedest to make sure that they did.
Welp Monday night I wrote him a message on here asking him a simple ques. It wasn't supposed to mean anything. I was just curious and it was just for conversation. I asked him what his thoughts were on marriage. Well he like totally changed. He got mean and pissy. And then that was it. He left me. Just like that. I tried to explain that the ques. really wasn't supposed to mean anything....but he told me that he had totally changed his mind and he really wasnt ready to be a family with me and our daughter. He really hurt me. I cried until like 5:30 in the morning. I dont understand it. I guess in a way its my fault, b'c after 5 years of being with mathis I know never to get my hopes up. And I did. And once again I got fucked over and hurt. So oh well I guess. His loss, right? I hate being in love.
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le sigh people should appreciate gifts more often rather than taking them for granted -shrug-
<3
hope things get better. love or the lack thereof. theyre both equally cold bitches if ya ask me
heh well its true.
and yes. you simply MUST party hard
im fairly certain i was so wasted on mine it was laughable.
either that or i celebrated it late. lol i could have been home on break from college since it falls in the summer hehe.