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I feel very confused and akward today. I will soon be leaving behind a world of people I have come to enjoy so much for my education which I value so highly. I am glad to be going back to school as I enjoy my studies and my goal is so near fruition that it makes me giddy to think of it. With that said there is a whole other part of me that just wants to cry. The friends I have here are like none I have known anywhere else and I am scared I will never find people who care for me like they do. I lived in saskatoon last year too and I spent the majority of my time with a canine companion. I suppose Im just shy and its something I will have to work on. I keep feeling like I am losing people but after reading someone elses journal I realize how silly and selfish that seems. Im not really losing anyone at all. Im only moving a province away.

Now that my emo venting is done for the day I should probably focus on all the things I have to look forward to. Im heading out to Kelowna on sunday morning and staying a whole week. I hope its ubearably hot and Im forced to spend the whole vacation swiming in a crystal clear lake. One of my psuedo brothers and a few of my very close friends live there so it makes it even more exciting. Now I realize how stupid I am to whine about living in a different city from my favorite people. If we all lived in the same place where would we vacation?

After I get back from vacation I get to move back to saskatoon. Its a beautiful city and I really do miss my canine companion lol. I already have plans to go to coco loco (which by the way everyone in the saskatchewan area should come out to) and I cant wait to catch up on all the gossip from my roomates.

Anyways now that I have purged myself of transitional anxiety I think I might get some much needed sleep.