rosita

So update on the uber-confusing boy situation. I went over to their place last night to pre-drink before the bar and said boy asks me if I was drinking. He informs me that he is not drinking and asks if I can drive. So I think hey this will be a good opportunity for us to talk about things while we are sober. However I did end up having a beer and a half with the girls and thus didnt drive but was still sober and looking forward to clearing the air with this guy. Unfortunately for me, said boy ignores/avoids me all night and then hits on 2-3 tiny androgenous blondes right in front of my face. I was stupid enough to think that he actually wanted to talk about shit. Another girl I was with ended up getting hurt by the same guy and so she got me right drunk. She then actually ended up slapping said boy because she was so angry with him about what he had done to the both of us.

I really wanted nothing more than to go home and cry with my dog but the ATM wasnt working and so I couldnt get money for a cab.I did manage to get back to the house that belongs to my friend and the jerk face boy. There I made the girls get me super stoned and we danced around not thinking about anything and avoiding jerk face at all costs. Basically the entire party knew my situation too. So everyone was trying to be super nice, but that just knocked my pride down even lower. I woke up this morning on a futon with a massive headache, a depressed/used feeling and a giant vet physiology lab report looming over my head. I wish my lab group wasnt so useless so that I didnt ahve to do this whole thing by myself today. Im soo not in the mood.

I let you violate me
I let you desecrate me
I let you penetrate me
I let you complicate me