band practice on halloween night.
i think matty and seth are holding the band together.
i hope this goes somewhere.. if not i dunno what to do.
these boys are the only thing holding me here.
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tattoo on thursday. i need to find dave to go with me.
well.. now that im offically jobless, alone and with no roomate..
im running away to boston for the weekend to hopefully clear my head and try to let go of some things.
dealing.
driving around for a few hours lost and crying a few days ago.. i ended up in front of Greenman.
decided to deal with shit the same way Toolbox does. get a tattoo. i made an appt. maybe it'll help.
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needed to be around people is hard when you dont have many friends who dont have direct ties to why your so upset.... Read More
you just need to talk to those people who you go to in these tough situations. ive read about what is going on and it is a very difficult situation. time off to think is probably the best that you could do right now, like a few days off somewhere where you can think.
you might need to bring those people who you talk to up to date on everything, but even that can be tough.
in this situation, just do what you think is right. do your best and that is that.
in a serious rut.
my mom made me cry yesterday.
ive been looking at my old ways and im having trouble telling myself they are a bad idea more and more.
seriously in debt. with no way to get out of it.
jobless in less than 10 days. i havent looked for another one.
im starting to crack and show through.
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ive been thinking lately about how different it is on here.. and if i still wanted to try or not.
and seeing them in person, now im really not sure.
they are perfect.
we'll see.
i keep having fucked up dreams in the few hours i actually sleep.
luke - can you do me a favor and take a tab on the monsters? cause i think more are running loose.
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i keep trying to call him. but hes never home. i need to see him in the flesh so i know that hes alright..
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