rorie

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i had a dream,
that you came to your sences.
that you figured out what you wanted...
that you realized your mistakes.
and you wanted to make it up to me.
that you finally gave me what i wanted from the very begining...
but it wasnt me from the start.
its was mearly the idea of me that you wanted.
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ive been too upset about this from the begining.
not even together, and youve already made me cry.
that to me feels the worst.
feeling worthless. hurt. used.
if feelings would have been made clear from the start,
i dont think there would have been a problem.
i said from the start i dont play games.
and thats what i was led into without my knowledge the whole time.
i wish i could have known,
what i was getting myself into.
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and i hope one day,
you will come to your sences.
and realize what could have been...
but im sure by that point,
there will be nobody to tell it to..
but yourself.
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